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| 07-3-2009 - hcg went from 300 to 352 in 24 hours possible ectopic |
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hi all. well this is the scoop. i went to the ER on thur b/c of bleeding and cramping. in the middle of my day on thur i was having horrible cramping, went to the bathroom, and a ton of blood came out. i called my doc and she said i am miscarring and that i should go home and rest and come into the office fri morn to get my hcg levels checked. so i went in fri morn around 8am....then i was super tired on friday, so i decided to take a nap. when i woke up i had a msg on my phone from my obgyn she wanted to know if i could come in immediately for an ultra sound...truns out my hcg levels increased. so i went into the office and long story short she told me that there is "something" in my left falloipian tube. she said she doesn't know if it is the prepnancy or not. apparently under normal circumstances one cannot see the fallopian tubes with an ultra sound unless there is "something" in them...this "something" could be fluid, or the prgnancy. anyways the doc said we had two options at this point: 1. she could give me metotrixane(i think that what it was) to bascially abort the pregnancy in the hopes of saving my ONLY tube...the problem with this is i MIGHT be having a normal pregnancy, and if i am then we would be killing our baby. 2. wait until monday and see where my hcg levels are at. the problem with this is if i am having another ectopic and my tube burst, then i will no longer be able to have kids naturally....so it is a VERY tough decision. but as of fri i chose option number 2. this is a huge risk, but if the baby is okay, than i don't want to make the mistake of killing it....
given all of what i have told you, then we come to monday. if on monday my levels still aren't rising as they would like, and the doc believes the baby is in my tube, we have two more options and my doc is routing for option number 1. option 1: she gives me the metotrixane to abort the pregnancy...the problem with this is when i had an ectopic in my right tube, the doc gave me the medicine to stop the pregnancy and it didn't work...my tube still ended up bursting....option 2: we go into surgury and they take out the baby. the problem with this is my tube may not heal properly therfore preventing me from having children in the future....
so there are all of my issues. OH there is one more possibility i may still be miscarring now....i am still bleeding and having on and off cramping so even though my hcg levels went up, they might have went down since friday...we don't know.
the only thing that has been going on with me is i am SUPER tired. but that could be b/c i have been worry so much comcening this pregnancy. also i have been sick. but maybe that is b/c i haven't really been eating b/c i have not been hungry....
so now i am at work(against advice but i figure i would be okay since i work in a lab and sit down most of the time) and having slight pains in my left side. i don't feel well, but i am trying to stick it out and tell myself things will be okay. anyways i am going to end this for now. i will keep you guys updated. one more thing. dh and i having been trying to have a baby ever since my son was born....but we have been going through personal problems for the last 8 months or so(dh and i have been together for about 7 years)....this pregnancy was sorta unexpected but very welcomed. i asked dh how he felt about the pregnancy and he said that he is "excited"...but if we lose this baby the chances of him actively trying for another is slim to none....i don't know. i am writing so much and have so many different emotions going on...i am going to stop writing. okay girls, thanks for reading! i love the support.
4 Comments on hcg went from 300 to 352 in 24 hours possible ectopicRainbowRach -
Monday, 9 Mar I am so sorry to hear this. I really think you should be at home. I hope that everything turns out as well as it can and that your remaining tube is not damaged. ((BIG HUGS)) EricandCalebsMommy -
Sunday, 8 Mar I'm sorry ~ what a difficult choice! I would have chosen as you did, though. May God be with you and help you through all this! kirra82 -
Sunday, 8 Mar I am soo sorry you have to go through this, you sound so strong, even though underneath you probably feel crushed... Life sux sometimes and it always happens to the nice people... Its harder said than done to rest cause when you are still no doubt you would be thinking about it non stop but you do need to rest... I hope and pray that this all works out and I'm sure you will make the right decision. I wish you all the best and I will be thinking about you xx obscurette -
Sunday, 8 Mar Oh linds I'm so sorry you are having to go through all of this. I do think you should be home in bed though!
This must be so very hard for you, so much unknown so much fear. I have no words to make you feel better. I will however be thinking of you and hoping with all my heart that on Monday things look more positive.
If you ever need to vent or scream or anything I am here. Take care of yourself. Go home and rest.
**hugs**