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10-8-2009 - This Is What It Is...

My mood while writing this blog: Honest and tearful

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A friend just called me to tell me she heard a Natalie Grant song on the radio that I needed to hear. I immediately looked for it on YouTube, and then searched for the lyrics. This hit the nail on the head for me. Today especially.
Even the line about wanting to let the hatred numb our sorrows. I wish it weren't true, but if I am honest I admit that it is. God have mercy. God, hold me today.

Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling
Who told us we'd be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
We're asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it's unfair

[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held

This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow

[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held
[Bridge]
If hope is born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior
[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held
We'd be held

This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held

This is what it means to be held.....

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1 Comments on This Is What It Is...


DTPhillips - Monday, 17 Aug
Hi just read your miscarriage etiqutte why out of politeness do I find myself agreeing with people when they say stupid things that later go over in my head and make me feel so angy. My friend who is like a mother to me said don't get yourself down it just wasn't meant to be this time you can always try again. She wouldn't say this to her own daughter who is pregnant so why me. It annoys me when they say you can try again at least you know you can get pregnant. I'm 40 my time is runing out it took over 12 months to get pregnant and then with a cycle of clomid. Thats enough of me ranting.