12-8-2008 - Update on Myself!!

My mood while writing this blog: Okay I guess

Well me and the baby's father are having our troubles with our relationship, but I have faith that we can make it through. That's what I'm praying for. We've been fighting so intensely lately, and I'm so scared out of my mind. That I've actually made stupid mental notes in my head "That today is the day he's leaving" that its affecting me emotionally and physically. But we've talked and both realized that we have to work on our relationship.

Since my college classes are coming up, I'm contemplating on keeping a part time job, since I may need to have clinical training done either this semester or the next. I'll have to check out how many hours of clinical hours do I need and do I think its necessary for this semester to have them done. If they aren't many hours and I do decide to do it this semester I'll go ahead and work part time.

Just so people know I do not have a license to drive a car, yet I'm 19 almost 20 yrs old. Just pitiful and pathetic in my eyes. But during the time I was learning to drive my family had financial problems like mom losing her job two times in a year because the economy sucks where we live. So she had to work crazy hours and then they had to buy her a new car because the old one was beyond repairs. So I'll admit not all of it is my fault. Yet since having this baby I've made getting license on my top to do list before my baby boy is here.

If you cannot tell I have plenty of things I need to get done or focus on while pregnant. I just hope the people in my life will stand by me and be supportive, because it is going to be crazy hard.