So things have been great ^^ Jeff and I have been doing so much better together. I've seen so much improvement in him, its scary, lol. It wasn't long ago I was crying my eyes out over him >.> Yeah I know patheic, but hey when you are pregnant you already cry over the silliest things so when things are truly wrong or frustrating its that much worse! He's transformed from this guy who never openly expressed his feelings to me, to a guy who wants to randomly hold me at night and hold my hand too. I know it sounds too lovey dovey, but damn I thought I was going to have a heart attack the first time it happened, haha. I've been dating him for almost 2 years and its still awesome when he does something unexpectantly when I thought I could predict every move he makes. He kisses me more, he pays attention to my needs, still knows how make me laugh, and I just hope we get stronger as a couple.

Last night we were I was laying in his arms and my tummy is sort of on his his, well I remember our baby boy was kicking up a storm and kept hitting not only me, but his daddy as well, hehe. So Jeff tells me randomly that when the baby is born he's gonna poke him in the sides and keep him up all night and see if he likes that. Lol, I think its cute that our little boy is already fighting with his daddy. This is not the first time he's kept Jeff up all night, now I'm not allowed to lay my tummy anywhere near his body rofl!

I think the only thing that Jeff is frustrating me with is coming up with acceptable name for our little boy!! I think it would not annoy me so much if I didn't have so many people of my family asking me if I had picked a name yet. This is a question I literally get just about everyday! Its like if I come up with a name I'll tell you! Then my family has to give me all these damn suggestions for names, and its not that I don't like them, but its that Jeff is the one holding us up. Go bother him, not me lol. They act like I'm the one who can magically come up with whatever name I want, but its not. Jeff has just about as much say as I do.

Its kind of odd that lately I've been finding myself getting annoyed with some people and the way they act. Its so sad =[ I'm not sure where any of this animosity or anger has been coming from, but I cannot stand some people!! Like with one of my friends, I can't explain why, but when I was sending out my invitations she said she might not come, but started asking me all these questions about my baby shower. I told her my family was planning it and I had no idea what was going on. But that didn't stop her, she started asking me if I was having food and what kind, if there was going to be a cake, if she had to participate in the baby shower games and so on and so forth. This perhaps could of been the hormones (or not) but it made me feel like she was only gonna go to my baby shower if it was good enough for her. One of the things she asked me, were the guests going to get gifts for coming and then asked what were the prizes for the games. GRR!! Hell I barely knew what was gonna go on at my own babyshower. I should of told her that those were rude questions for to ask >.>

And then I have a friend named Casie who I've been friends with for six years and she has a tendency to say things without thinking, its annoying!! Like when I was in her car, we were talking about the baby shower and how it went. She asked if something was wrong with the cake at the baby shower and said no. She said one of our friends, Sarah who were looking forward to having cake, took one bite and didn't want another. And then Casie told me in the car, that whenever anyone was asked for the cake they acted like they didn't want any like it was disgusting. I dunno just hurt my feelings because I knew my grandma worked really hard on it and was just so happy about making it... I know I can't help if someone doesn't like something, but its one of those things that I wish she never told me. She could of not said anything about it at all. Now listen to this, this really really pissed me off: Now when I brought up how my mom lost so much weight, my mom has lost over a hundred pounds in 7-8 months, my friend Casie was like "Oh I know!! We all were wondering where the fat cow was." My jaw could of dropped, she always has a way to say insensitive and offensive things and wonder if she truly even understands whats she saying or feels guilty.

Sorry for the venting, but damn!!! Just sick of some people sometimes. If these same people or any others say something offensive or insensitive about my son, I will not hesitate in the future to call them out!! Lol sorry I guess I'm just really hormonal ^^