03-9-2009 - Bassinette

My mood while writing this blog: Find & Dandy

Last Sunday I finally let myself get the baby stuff out. I have a big wooden cot that we hauled all the way from Sydney, only to find that the screws and attachments have been lost during the move. I phoned my sister who I inherited it from, and she said there’s no use trying to get new ones. Well, while I hate to spend the money, I secretly love having new stuff (even if new is second hand from ebay) I found a wooden bassinette with all the stuff so I decided to put that together. After spending two hours with the nuts, bolts, screws and instructions written in Pigeon-English it was finally together. I’ve put the little mattress thing in it, and also a few things I’ve bought for the baby in it. It’s in the spare room, which we’re using as a study at the moment and every time I go in there I’m mesmerised by this beautiful wooden bassinette……….imagining my little baby fast asleep in there all soft and beautiful. I feel like I’m falling in love with the bassinette, just because of the feelings looking it induces in me!

This bassinette has started it all off! I’ve now gone crazy, I haven’t bought anything yet, but I’ve been late night shopping and surfing the web and ebay for things I want for the baby room. I can’t believe Target has a white change table for $150 (on special!) while I can get a beautiful lacquered wooden one on ebay for $30! I’ve also sent a message to someone who had a single bed for auction on ebay for $5 but no body bid on it. I’ve offered them to buy it – it has a lacquered wooden shelf for a headboard. What a bargain! As baby won’t be staying in our bedroom, I thought a single bed in baby’s room might come in handy, especially during the first months.

Ladies, I cannot express to you how anxious, excited, happy, fearful and impatient I am feeling about the mor………morph………about the next ultrasound on the 16^th. It seems to me to be a lifetime away!

I’m feeling flutters in my tummy throughout the day, and also some pokes here and there. It’s wonderful feeling baby wriggle about, and I keep imagining in my mind’s eye what she’s doing in there! Is she kicking or wriggling or moving her arms or just turning over??? What does she look like??? Does she have a willy???? Hahahaha. When I don’t feel anything for a while (I didn’t feel baby today until about 10am) I start to get worried!!! The worrying never ends.

I’ve also had some diarrhea……….. maybe it’s from eating so much chocolate?? It’s not bad, it’s just I’ve been going about three times a day and it’s a lot softer than usual. I’ve had a few bouts where I have a sudden pain in my tummy and I HAVE to go. It certainly beats the constipation!

I’m feeling really great, except for the bursting into tears at the drop of a hat thing. I’ve been TOTALLY BAD in my eating habits. I’m eating well, breaky, lunch & dinner, but in-between I’ve been eating heaps of chocolate! Once I think about it, I can’t concentrate until I’ve had some. I know the baby is getting the vitamins and minerals it needs, I’m not worried about that, I’m more worried about the size of my bum, it’s getting HUGE! I was trying on some clothes in Target and they have these mirrors that allow you to look at your back without twisting round, and I got a glimpse of my g-string clad moon crater bum in the mirror and I was HORRIFIED! I then stood there looking at my bum thinking “OH…………MY…………..GOD!”

I am SOOOOO wishing my life away until the 16^th. It’s so hard finding out what everyone else is having, and hearing how perfect their babies are, and not knowing myself! I know I should be focusing on the health of baby, but I WANNA KNOW!!!!!!!!!!! I can’t help it! Bloody public hospitals – I should have stuck to the original plan and had the scan done at the private clinic I had booked on the 9^th. Oh well, such is life!

Love ya long time!

Tanya.