08-11-2009 - 28 WOO HOO WEEKS!

My mood while writing this blog: Fine & dandy!

Wow, 28 weeks preggas! Once again, I can't express just how overjoyed and happy and special and excited I feel (mixed with a bit of anxiousness and worry!). One day I will tell my daughter about the blogs I wrote while I was preggas with her!

As I sit here typing, eating liquorice and guzzling water to make up the two litres a day we're supposed to drink, I think back on the whole pregnancy so far and thank God and all the angels, and mother nature, and everyone else for this wonderful experience I've been given. Although we don't like to think about it and hope it doesn't happen to us, I know if my baby was born now she would have a good chance of survival. When I think back to seeing that blood on the toilet paper when I was about 6 weeks preggas, I just marvel at the fact that baby has made it this far and I'm so proud of the little trouper! I just know she's going to be a tough cookie, just like her Mum and Dad.

Looking back I feel like I've come oh so very far; my whole perspective on life has changed and I understand now the little importance of work and career and study and clothes and going out to the pub and me, me, me. Chris and baby are my whole heart, my whole soul. I feel closer to Chris than I ever have.

Looking forward I know I have so much further to go and I wonder what this person named Tanya will be like in yet another six months time? I wonder how I will handle motherhood and all the unexpected twists and turns that are sure to come my way. I wonder what my relationship with Chris will be like. Most of all, I wonder what baby looks like and it brings a lump to my throat when I wonder what it will feel like to finally hold her in my arms. I wonder if she will recognise the song I've been singing to her and I wonder if she'll feel comfort in my arms and my touch. I know it sounds cliché, but I did not imagine I could love someone so much. I never imagined I could love someone more than Chris.

I feel wonderful. My only complaint is that my fingers and feet are swollen and my feet hurt at night. I went to the Dr this morning and she told me I really need to try and get my rings off my fingers before they swell anymore. I had the 28 week blood test; the drink they gave me was yummy (I was so worried it was going to be awful!) and I'm all clear on the gestational diabetes side of things, and there's no sign of anaemia what-so-ever. My blood pressure is perfect. Dr did detect some white blood cells in my urine so she's sent that off to be tested to ensure it's nothing to worry about. Hopefully it's the first signs of a UTI and nothing really serious. I haven't had any other symptoms so I'm glad I'm seeing a great Dr who can pick up on things before they get out of hand. She can't tell what position my baby is in, she seems to think baby is lying sideways (I think because I'm chubby she's having trouble feeling baby). She said she's like to see for sure what position baby is in because it's optimal that baby be facing head down about this time. You wouldn't believe it but my Dr's clinic just had an ultrasound machine delivered this week and she's asked me to come back in tomorrow to get the results of my wee test, but also to test out their new ultrasound machine! WOO HOO! I can't wait to see baby! I'm so lucky - I also have a 3D ultrasound booked for the 21st so we'll see her again then. I was surprised that Dr thinks baby should be head down this early, I always thought it was in the last six weeks or so, but I'm not complaining about having an ultrasound tomorrow. I wonder if Dr will have a look at her fanny for me and make sure she's still a girl?? hahahaha. Oh I can't wait, I'm so excited to see baby!!!!

Something strange I will tell you about. Tilley my dog, who has been my surrogate child for the last 12 years has taken to sniffing at my belly when her face happens to be in sniffing distance. She definitely knows something is happening in there! When she sniffs I tell her 'that's baby in there'. When we go in baby's room Tilley has to be calm and I don't give her any attention at all in that room anymore. When we're in there for a long time and she lays quietly and watches me, and we come out of the room I pet her and tell her what a good girl she is for being calm and she's caught on really quickly not to ask for attention when we're in that room. I would hate for her to think it's OK to be pawing at me for a pat in the middle of the night when I'm breastfeeding. I can see more than a few baby toys being chewed in the future though ;-) I just know that Tilley is going to be great with baby and I can't wait for them to meet.

Well, that's about all from me. Remember to cherish every moment!

Love Tanya.