Being tired is something that is going to continue to be a battle from now until months after the baby is born lol so don't worry.

Ultrasounds truly are some of the biggest highlights during a pregnancy, being able to see your baby makes your heart skip a beat. How ever after a loss knowing an ultrasound is soon approaching can be a stressful time. It's like your heart is doing battle with your brain. Your heart is so excited to see the baby but your head keeps reminding you of heartbreaking past experiences. It's so hard to let go of the worry and just focus on how exciting it will be to see that tiny baby dancing around. I have been in your shoes and even though I have passed the 12 mark with flying colors I am still worried about my up coming scan, it's just something you can't shake once you know what you can stand to loose.

I just want you to know that we have been in this battle together since the start and we both had the terrible experience of having a loss but we were soon to recover and fell pregnant again with out a long TTC process. So we have to try to relax and tell ourselves this time is different. I really do believe you and I are going to have beautiful babies in our arms in a matter of months and that with each others support we will make it through this freak out moments where we loose sight of the excitement.

I do believe your scan will be fine and the baby will wave and blow you kisses ;o) I suggest you go out and buy some beautiful frames to put those pictures in.

As for the picture taking... I am right there with you but for other reasons, since having my daughter my weight and I are not the best of friends and I can feel down about it a lot and sometimes I dont even care. How ever I will run from a camera like mad women. I hate being reminded of my weight and I hate having my picture taken. I am sure some people think it's rude when I avoid being in pictures or refuse to pose for the camera lol but it's just how I am. Like you I have rotten people who find the humour in it including my wicked sister in-law who would almost go out of her way to make sure she got gross pictures of me then would tag then on facebook or send out mass e-mails to family and friends with these pictures. So time and time again I would ask her to stop and would politely move out of the way when she took pictures and finally when she could not give up making me the butt of her jokes I just flat out said I would not attend family events with her if I was going to feel uncomfortable and worry for days about the horrible e-mails filled with pictures she would send to the world. It seems harsh but I had enough and was done with allowing her to hurt my feelings. So since saying I would no longer be around her she has stopped taking pictures of me.

It seems like such a bitchy thing but really no one likes to feel humiliated and it's worse when you know its being done on purpose.

I am sure its hard for people to understand that you hate having your picture taken because you are such a GORGEOUS girl. A real life barbie doll lol. How ever it's how you feel and I 100% agree with you.

Try to avoid people that are going to stress you out as pregnancy takes your emotions to an all new level and makes some situations worse lol.

I hope you are feeling better soon. Keep me updated and please let me know how your scan goes, I can not wait to see pictures and then to hear how you reveal the news to everyone!!!!!

xoxoxox

sorry this was such a novel I just want you to know I always take the time to read to your blogs and respond from the heart. You always have my support.