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Today is Kathleen's 1st anniversary - the day of her birth and passing. I miss her greatly but so do I any other day. Recently I have relived her birth quite a bit and it seems so much more vivid than the day it happened. It does bring back pain, guilt and everything else that this journey lets you experience. I know I still need a great deal of healing and to forgive myself for not having done more. Today I do feel fairly strong and comforted. I am thankful for all my supporting friend on here and the prayers.
My husband was able to take part of today off and so we spend some family time together. I made a cake for Kathleen. It was beautiful, just like she was. (I can't figure out how to insert a photo here so I am uploading a photo of her cake with my other pictures)
We love you and miss you, our sweet and precious daughter.
12 Comments on Kathleen's anniversary
newmommyagain - Tuesday, 31 Mar
That is a beautiful thing you did for Kathleen. I believe we have the want and need to give something to our beloved children and acknowlege them. The cake you made for her was a perfect way to do this. I always want to do something for my Isaiah. I buy flowers every week and take them to her grave. On holidays, I buy something a little special for her like a balloon or an ornament. My due date was supposed to be this weekend, April 4th. I am feeling very depressed lately, but hanging in there. All of the Easter cheer is getting me down- the eggs, the Easter baskets, the candies. It all reminds me of things that make children happy - which makes me miss my baby girl. I wanted to do something special for Isaiah at this time, but I am not sure what yet. Now that I know you have made your daughter that beautiful cake, I feel like my feelings are validated about wanting to do this.
Thank you for sharing your cake with us. It really means a lot.
May your faith in God comfort you.
Best wishes & lots of love,
Michelle
ktpregers - Tuesday, 31 Mar
Hi Karin, what a beautiful cake for your precious angel, Kathleen. I am so amazed at your strength and caring. As you know, we hit George's 1 year anniversary on the same day we baptized our daughter. Cora has eased my pain a bit and for that I am deeply thankful. But I too have relieved his short life over and over to no end. It is so hard to think about it and I have found myself placing blame on the doctors and hospital just to get through it. You have been such a source of comfort to me on this site so I must apologize for not writing sooner. I have kept you in my thoughts these past days and am happy to hear that you were able to make the day a special one. How nice for your husband to take some time to help you through it. We took Cora to his grave on that day though my husband protested a bit. The pain for fathers runs very deep as they were not able to prevent our losses. I pray that God will bless your familiy and that you will recieve many joys in your life to come. Thank you for your words of wisdom and sharing your experiences with me and this site..
Hugs,
Katie
TexasMommyWannaBe - Monday, 30 Mar
Hi Karin. I wanted to write sooner but I was emotionally overwhelmed by your blog. You are such a beautiful, loving and caring person. I admire your strength so much. I am so glad you keep her alive in your thoughts and by your actions. I hope and pray that your pain eases over time but I know it's so hard. Just remember, you are an amazing person and you will get all that you deserve and more... xoxo - Pam
obscurette - Monday, 30 Mar
what a beautiful cake! Kathleen would have loved it!
it is really hard to relive the experience again and again, but somehow that is how our brains want to process what has happened. It will always hurt but hopefully the complete incapacitating pain will ease a bit over time.
I'm glad you are feeling strong and comforted and hope your journey through healing continues to make you stronger still.
take care, you are in my thoughts.
*hugs*
wendywoo40 - Friday, 27 Mar
Hi Karin
The cake is so beautiful. My thoughts are with you at this time.
Take care
Wendy Woo
kimmeym - Friday, 27 Mar
I pray for you. I know how painful the first anniversary is. You're right it's worse than the actual experience because you play it over in your mind over and over and wonder how you could've changed it. I miss my son more now than I did at the exact moment it happened. Please know that u are in my prayers. Love u!
firstmommy08 - Friday, 27 Mar
Hi Karin, I'm praying for God's peace for you & your DH's lives during this time.
Girlie, you did everything you could have done. I did everything I could have done at the time.
I'm just sending you lots of love & hugs right now. One day we will be with our little babies. And we'll be able to love them just the way we always wanted to.
Peace & Love, Sam
2angelbabies - Friday, 27 Mar
Hi Karin the cake you made was beatuiful. The first year is the hardest. After that it gets a little easier but not by much. I am so glad your hubby got the day off and you got to spend it as a family.You and your family will be in my prayers.
nursemommy3 - Friday, 27 Mar
Oh Karin the cake is beautiful. I will keep you in my prayers especially today.
betty - Friday, 27 Mar
So sorry my dear my prayer is for you. And pls be strong it is not easy I know but be strong!!
kbfulloffaith - Friday, 27 Mar
We took the day off for Annabelle's anniversary. It did make a difference to make the day about family. You are in my thoughts, you are very strong and time will aid in healing. Try not to feel guilt, try not to feel regret, try to look at it and appreciate the opportunity to love that little girl, looking at it that way really helped me.
Many prayers your way.
firsttimer - Friday, 27 Mar
Hi Karen, I think the cake you made for baby Kathleen was a fantastic idea. What a good job you made of it. I know you think about her every day, and that today is another day, but you have marked it as extra special as that's what she was to you and your family. Keep strong my love. x
| 26-3-2009 - Kathleen's anniversary |  My mood while writing this blog:sad but also okay |
Today is Kathleen's 1st anniversary - the day of her birth and passing. I miss her greatly but so do I any other day. Recently I have relived her birth quite a bit and it seems so much more vivid than the day it happened. It does bring back pain, guilt and everything else that this journey lets you experience. I know I still need a great deal of healing and to forgive myself for not having done more. Today I do feel fairly strong and comforted. I am thankful for all my supporting friend on here and the prayers.
My husband was able to take part of today off and so we spend some family time together. I made a cake for Kathleen. It was beautiful, just like she was. (I can't figure out how to insert a photo here so I am uploading a photo of her cake with my other pictures)
We love you and miss you, our sweet and precious daughter.
12 Comments on Kathleen's anniversary
newmommyagain - Tuesday, 31 Mar
That is a beautiful thing you did for Kathleen. I believe we have the want and need to give something to our beloved children and acknowlege them. The cake you made for her was a perfect way to do this. I always want to do something for my Isaiah. I buy flowers every week and take them to her grave. On holidays, I buy something a little special for her like a balloon or an ornament. My due date was supposed to be this weekend, April 4th. I am feeling very depressed lately, but hanging in there. All of the Easter cheer is getting me down- the eggs, the Easter baskets, the candies. It all reminds me of things that make children happy - which makes me miss my baby girl. I wanted to do something special for Isaiah at this time, but I am not sure what yet. Now that I know you have made your daughter that beautiful cake, I feel like my feelings are validated about wanting to do this.
Thank you for sharing your cake with us. It really means a lot.
May your faith in God comfort you.
Best wishes & lots of love,
Michelle
ktpregers - Tuesday, 31 Mar
Hi Karin, what a beautiful cake for your precious angel, Kathleen. I am so amazed at your strength and caring. As you know, we hit George's 1 year anniversary on the same day we baptized our daughter. Cora has eased my pain a bit and for that I am deeply thankful. But I too have relieved his short life over and over to no end. It is so hard to think about it and I have found myself placing blame on the doctors and hospital just to get through it. You have been such a source of comfort to me on this site so I must apologize for not writing sooner. I have kept you in my thoughts these past days and am happy to hear that you were able to make the day a special one. How nice for your husband to take some time to help you through it. We took Cora to his grave on that day though my husband protested a bit. The pain for fathers runs very deep as they were not able to prevent our losses. I pray that God will bless your familiy and that you will recieve many joys in your life to come. Thank you for your words of wisdom and sharing your experiences with me and this site..
Hugs,
Katie
TexasMommyWannaBe - Monday, 30 Mar
Hi Karin. I wanted to write sooner but I was emotionally overwhelmed by your blog. You are such a beautiful, loving and caring person. I admire your strength so much. I am so glad you keep her alive in your thoughts and by your actions. I hope and pray that your pain eases over time but I know it's so hard. Just remember, you are an amazing person and you will get all that you deserve and more... xoxo - Pam
obscurette - Monday, 30 Mar
what a beautiful cake! Kathleen would have loved it!
it is really hard to relive the experience again and again, but somehow that is how our brains want to process what has happened. It will always hurt but hopefully the complete incapacitating pain will ease a bit over time.
I'm glad you are feeling strong and comforted and hope your journey through healing continues to make you stronger still.
take care, you are in my thoughts.
*hugs*
wendywoo40 - Friday, 27 Mar
Hi Karin
The cake is so beautiful. My thoughts are with you at this time.
Take care
Wendy Woo
kimmeym - Friday, 27 Mar
I pray for you. I know how painful the first anniversary is. You're right it's worse than the actual experience because you play it over in your mind over and over and wonder how you could've changed it. I miss my son more now than I did at the exact moment it happened. Please know that u are in my prayers. Love u!
firstmommy08 - Friday, 27 Mar
Hi Karin, I'm praying for God's peace for you & your DH's lives during this time.
Girlie, you did everything you could have done. I did everything I could have done at the time.
I'm just sending you lots of love & hugs right now. One day we will be with our little babies. And we'll be able to love them just the way we always wanted to.
Peace & Love, Sam
2angelbabies - Friday, 27 Mar
Hi Karin the cake you made was beatuiful. The first year is the hardest. After that it gets a little easier but not by much. I am so glad your hubby got the day off and you got to spend it as a family.You and your family will be in my prayers.
nursemommy3 - Friday, 27 Mar
Oh Karin the cake is beautiful. I will keep you in my prayers especially today.
betty - Friday, 27 Mar
So sorry my dear my prayer is for you. And pls be strong it is not easy I know but be strong!!
kbfulloffaith - Friday, 27 Mar
We took the day off for Annabelle's anniversary. It did make a difference to make the day about family. You are in my thoughts, you are very strong and time will aid in healing. Try not to feel guilt, try not to feel regret, try to look at it and appreciate the opportunity to love that little girl, looking at it that way really helped me.
Many prayers your way.
firsttimer - Friday, 27 Mar
Hi Karen, I think the cake you made for baby Kathleen was a fantastic idea. What a good job you made of it. I know you think about her every day, and that today is another day, but you have marked it as extra special as that's what she was to you and your family. Keep strong my love. x
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