19-3-2009 - RIP my friend.

My mood while writing this blog: mixed emotions

well this week is bittersweet thats for sure.

on mondays I always look forward to tuesday as it is pay day so I have loads of earins to run.

this Tuesday I had a day full, I had to take the 2 younger kids to music group, then meet my sis for lunch, then go pick up a buggy board Id bought, then take all 3 kids to the doctor for different things, Sam was going for his speech and hearing, rory was going for his legs, and mason was going to get his 2nd lot of jabs.

I did get all those things done and I found out my best friend was going for her scan so was gonna find out her babies sex. just b4 the dr app I got a txt to say its a girl I was soo happy, I soo knew she was having a girl, and I thought yay today is going great and thats the icing.

but that arvo I got a phone call to say my horse was very sick and it didnt look good. soo I had to get there asap. and the news wasnt good the vet was there and there was nothing anyone could do so we had to put him to sleep, which was heart breaking this horse had carried me through my pregnancies and I loved him soo much and in his last efforts made it clear that he was just happy I was there, the minute he knew I was there he nuzzled into my shoulder and then the vet put him to sleep. so what was suppose to be a great turned into a nightmare.

the next day we had to bury him and we gave him a little ceremony and I gave a little speech though it was very hard to do through all the tears. there were other girls there that loved him too so it was good to not be alone, he was also my mums horse so its been hard on the family.

and to top it all off AF arrived that evening, so Im on CD2 and that too is a bittersweet thing lol, AF showing up at least tells me where Im at for ttc and it also means that the signs I was getting 2wks ago was ov like I thought it was and this cycle was 42 days just like my last cycle, so some pattern is forming, but a bfp would have been better lol specially with the week im having.