18-6-2008 - Depressed....

My mood while writing this blog: depressed

March 6:

I dont know what is wrong with me, but last night one form of depression came over me. I'm still feeling depressed and cant get back to sleep and it's almost 5 in the morning. I think it mostly has to do with the fact that my boyfriend hasn't come home to me as yet but I guess I'll have to get over it. And I think it has to do with also that I haven't told my mother as yet, kinda want her apart of my journey from now. THESE DAMN HORMONES! who told them that they can just suddenly start to take over my life like that, certainly I DIDNT!

I start crying for no reason, and dont let me do something wrong in the house to make my mother upset and shout at me, I just bawwwwlllllll like no body's business. I'm friggen hungry all the time, no matter how much I brush my teeth I cant get this flippin taste out my mouth, I feel lonley even though I got the world of friends, I'm always tired, my stomach has been cramping for three weeks straight now, my breast get even more sore by the second, I feel like I need a time out on everything and get my boo back here with me or i will be in the loony bin in a New York minute.