30-5-2009 - Well this is it ! One more day then its back to work!

My mood while writing this blog: sad

Well that terrible day is nearly upon me .....the dreaded return to work ! I am sooooo sad ! I cant bear the though of leaving my little pudding in the care of someone else and although I have found a childminder who i adore and he adores it just does not make it any easier whatsoever ! :-(

The past 6 months have flown by so quick I just dont know where they have gone! My Cody is not that tiny baby I brought home from the hospital anymore he is a little chubby bouncy pudding who brightens up my day a little more than the one before ! Every moment of his life has been the best and seeing him grow and change from a tiny baby to what he is now has been fantastic! Its just now I feel like I am going to miss out on so much ! That someone else may see so many of the firsts that happen each day before me and that someone else is going to give him that cuddle when he is upset ,make him giggle etc etc etc .

I so wish i could stay home and look after him but it is not an option . To give both of my boys the best I can I need to work and thats just what I want to give them ! The total best I can!

I do have the consolation that I have all of the school holidays off and I will so much be counting down those days till the summer holidays as soon as I walk through the door on Monday and wishing the day away so I can collect my boys and take them home.

My boys are my life ! I love them so much and I Will give them the best i can !

Being a single mum is hard but my boys keep me going and I love them with all my heart xxxx