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16-8-2009 - BABYSHOWER TOMMOROW AND MAYBE AN OLD FRIEND BACK IN THE PICTURE

My mood while writing this blog: WAITING FOR IT!

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THIS WEEK CHICAS, I TOLD YOU GUYS ABOUT ME TALKING TO AN OLD BOYFRIEND, FROM HIGH SCHOOL, BUT I WANT TO INDUGLE NOW!I LOVE HIM! HE WAS MY FIRST AND HE WAS SOMEBODY THAT I WILL ALWAYS WANT TO BE WITH WE BROKE UP BECAUSE OF HIM LEAVING FOR COLLEGE AND WE LINK BACK UP ON MY SPACE! HE GAVE ME PICS AND WE FLIRTED BACK AND FOURTH! WE BOTH AGREED THAT IF SHIT WAS DIFFERENT, MY KIDS WOULD HAVE BEEN HIS.

I CANT BELIEVE IT LIKE I REALLY WANT TO BE WITH HIM, I DREAM OF HIM AND WE TALK ON AIM, NEVER ON THE PHONE! WHY BECAUSE OF CHUCK AND HE HAS A GIRL EVEN THOUGH HE SAY ITS NOT THAT SERIOUS!I JUST DONT WANT TO PUT HIS RELATIONSHIP AT RISK. HE A GOOD GUY AND I ALWAYS WAS THE BAD GIRL!HE SAYS THAT AFTER ME HE HAS HAD BAD RELATIONSHIPS ONE AFTER ANOTHER AND HE SAID I WAS A BREATHE OF FRESH AIR! THAT GREAT.

THE FUCKED UP THING IS THAT, LAST NIGHT I CAUGHT MYSSELF SMILING TO MYSELF AND CHUCK WAS LIKE WHAT YOU SMILING AT? IT WAS ABOUT LLOYD! I TOLD CHUCK THAT I WANT TO TRY TO BE HIS FRIEND AND HE SAY BUT IT A FANTASY THAT YOU WILL GET BACK TOGETHER AND I SAY YES BUT ITS ALSO COULD BE REAL. MANY OF PEOPLE BREAK UP AND GET BACK TOGETHER AFTER YEARS AND BE TOGETHER FOR EVER...RIGHT? IT HAS HAPPEN! I PUT HIM IN FRONT OF CHUCK ON MY MYSPACE TOP AND HE ASK ME ABOUT IT! I LIED...OH WELL I DIDNT CARE HE LIES TO ME!

SO I WROTE LLOYD A LONG LETTER ON MYSPACE ABOUT HOW I FEEL AND I HAVENT TALK TO HIM SINCE FRIDAY SO I KNOW IF HE READS IT. BUT AM I JUMPING THE GUN? HE LIVES IN BALTIMORE AND I LIVE IN NJ. AM I READIN TO MUCH IN TO IT WHAT SHOULD I DO LADIES? I NEED THE ADVICE OF MY HOME GIRLS!!!

BABYSHOWER TOMORROW!!!

YEAH AT FIRST IT WAS LIKE NOTHING WAS ORGANIZED BECAUSE MY CLUB PREZ ACT CRAZY SOMETIMES BUT IT COMING ALONG GOOD! SO WE WILL SEE TOMORROW, I MADE SEAFOOD SALAD AND DEVIL EGGS! SO ITS ALL GOOD LIKE I SAID EARLY CHUCK AND I WILL BE WEARING WHITE PICS WILL BE DOWNLOADED BY TUES!!

BEST WISHES SAO!

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5 Comments on BABYSHOWER TOMMOROW AND MAYBE AN OLD FRIEND BACK IN THE PICTURE


Texas gal - Monday, 17 Aug
humm... Don't take this the wrong way.. but..why try to jump ship now? Isn't Chuck living with you and trying to help you support this baby? Talking to someone on the internet and starting up a face to face real romance are two totally different things. You might just like the idea of talking to someone new. But,,,, do you think this person is going to move for you? Then come into your life and take over be a father to this new child plus the children that you already have? He might,... I'm not saying that he wouldn't because I don't know him but it seems kinda far off right now. Plus, you still have Chuck living with you. I would concentrate on your new baby on the way and making a happy stable home for him. You can still talk to your X but you should let him know that your starting a new life with Chuck and his baby. Again, just trying to give you some insight for what it's worth, since you asked.

jazznshan - Monday, 17 Aug
oh yeah, update us on the shower, have fun

jazznshan - Monday, 17 Aug
don't want to work it out with chuck? he coming in the picture at a fragile time. nothing wrong with hanging out, but i would not romance him yet. since he got a girl and you got a man. hang out see where his head is at and over time the choice, will hopefully be easier.

brandyce - Sunday, 16 Aug
i think you should wait a while before you talk to lloyd again. only because you are gonna have alot to deal with for the next few months. i mean you have a pretty full plate right now. you are gonna have a new baby, chuck, and show your kids attention and stuff. sounds like alot to me. im sure is lloyd is the one he will still be there after you have everything else balanced. good luck!!! oh and have fun at your shower!!!!

brophytwins - Sunday, 16 Aug
I hope this doesnt come off rude but i think u should just chill out of the whole ex thing for a minute your about to give birth and i think thats enough to think about for now plus even though u know him the internet life does leave u stuck in a fantasy because u can say anything u want i stopped talking to my daughters dad and then just started talking online to him and texting and everything seemed so great then we would hook up in person after awhile and it would hit me that i really hate his ass so we would stop talking again then after awhile do the online thing again back and forth i had to stop because online hes great in person he makes me wanna puke lol i know your situation is diff but i would give it some time until after the baby is born and see how u feel because u know chuck is about to go thru a change too when the baby comes all men do hes gonna be so sweet and loving blah blah blah lol