02-4-2009 - april 2nd appointment

My mood while writing this blog: happy and anxious

so today i had my appointment, i went in had my weight checked, my doctor listened to my lungs and stuff and then told me that i was blessed with perfect health that all my blood work came out great and then she says except for the cystic fibrosis carrier screening that i came out postive to be a carrier. my face went blank and i didn't breath for about a second then she says honey don't freak out or get all worked up about it you are just a carrier it doesnt mean that you're baby will get the disease. so she looks at my husband and talks to him for a bit and asks him to get the test done also to see if the baby will have a higher chance of getting it (a 25% chance if both parents are carriers) but she looks at us both and says not to fret that nothing they can test for is always going to turn out to be so. then the exciting part, she gets the doppler and the jelly and starts looking for the baby, she looks and looks and then she got the heartbeat for a second but i didn't hear it she said what a little rascal it moved so she tries again so we can hear it, and then she finds it and it was the most amazing moment and it erased all my negative thoughts. i was so happy just listening to it and imagining how he or she will feel like when i start feeling the kicks. so after that i go to the back and get some blood drawn for the afp tetra screening, i just hope i don't get a positive on something because one positive is enough but regardless i will not terminate the pregnancy or treat my baby different after birth because it's a part of me that is already so special and dear to me. oh and apparently my uterus is bigger than it should be at 15 weeks my doc says that i might be 2 weeks ahead but she can't confirm until my ultrasound is done so pretty soon i'll probably be changing my due date. i am also so happy to have such a caring doctor, she always answers my questions and you can just tell she has a kind soul.