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sarahann
	Age: 35 Country: Australia Province/region: New South Wales City: Ocean Shores Partner: My Husband Adam Children: Yes, 2 Pregnant: No Due date: 09 0 ,0000 Occupation: Government
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21-11-2008 - Sorry my baby...

My mood while writing this blog:
Sad

I am (was) nearly 9 weeks pregnant. I had some light spotting about a week ago, which stopped as soon as it started. On Thursday I had the same thing, so I went to the doctor that afternoon. The doctor sent me straight for a blood test and ultrasound. The ultrasound tech told me the baby was only measuring 6 1/2 weeks, and she couldn't find a fetal pole or heartbeat. She said that could be quite normal if I really was only 6 1/2 weeks. So, either my dates are wrong (which I really hope is the case, but I doubt it) or my baby died just over 2 weeks ago. I have had another blood test since, and have to have yet another blood test on Monday, another ultrasound on Thursday and I go back to the doctor on Friday to get the results. So that is a whole week of not knowing whether my baby is alive or not. The doctor told me to prepare myself for the worst, then told me to try not to worry too much.

I feel like I am being punished because I wondered if I could love this baby as much as I love my daughter. I know I would. I just hope that everything will be ok and I have the chance to show this baby how much I love it.

12 Comments on Sorry my baby...

liz82 - Monday, 24 Nov
i am sorry hun you are in my prayers keep me posted i will be thinking about you

oldfirstimer - Monday, 24 Nov
I am so sorry to hear your news. I hope it is gonna work out o.k.. I will be thinking about you and praying that it was just a late ovulation!! Take care

shez05 - Monday, 24 Nov
Oh I am so sorry to hear that! I will keep you and your little one in my thoughts and prayers! Please let us know how you go xoxo

JUDE 2 - Saturday, 22 Nov
Im so sorry to hear your bad news but there is still hope yet and i really hope that all is ok. It will be a long week for you and if you need someone to talk with im always here.

~ I luv my boyz ~ - Saturday, 22 Nov
Hold on hon and stay positive I know its hard.........

minkymoo78 - Saturday, 22 Nov
I'm so sorry and I hope everything is in fact ok. The waiting will be awful I know. Do you still have symptoms? Take care x

lisamarie8503 - Saturday, 22 Nov
OH Im so sorry hun! I will pray for you and your little baby!

allioop - Saturday, 22 Nov
You are NOT being punished for thinking normal, human thoughts!! I had 2 m/c myself and I know how devastating it can be. Please don't think it's anything you've done. These things happen sometimes and there's nothing you could have done differently to change whatever the outcome will be. I will pray for you and this little one!!!

prayin2god41 - Saturday, 22 Nov
oh hun I am prayin for the best. I hope ur only 6 in a half weeks pregnant. Please keep me posted and i will be praying

LittleFeet - Saturday, 22 Nov
You're not being punished Kel, some little angels don't have to be here long to touch our hearts. But I'm hoping for the best ... for you.

JamieGarcia - Saturday, 22 Nov
Oh my gosh, that almost had me crying. I know that it's not for a fact bad news, but just imagining the emotions you will be going through over the next week as you wonder...that's what breaks my heart. I wish I could give you a big big hug.

firsttimemom8122 - Saturday, 22 Nov
Please keep your head up, as hard as I know what I'm about to ask you to do, try to do it, "Don't think about it this week" I will keep you in my prayers and I know God will take care of you and your baby. I'm hear if you need me.

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