10-11-2010 - 31 weeks 4 days

My mood while writing this blog: achey

SO I saw my ob tonight! dr says babys heart sounds good, i have a 3 hour glucose on friday. yucky. she was suprised though because ive lost 3 more lbs, and the babys head is really low. she wants to check my cervix again next week and schedule the c section for sometime before the 1st of january. man time is really creepin away from me.

Im trying really hard to be positive right now, but its incredibly hard when my back is constantly acheing and i feel like heartburn is melting my kneecaps and elbows. My daughter is really testing my patience lately! Im trying not to be too aggravated around her as well because my moods affect hers. I wonder if its just that shes 3 years old and feeling the power of 'no' and testing her limits, or if its that im just a rotten tomato lately and what shes doing wouldnt bother me if i werent so sour? I know when I have 2 children it will be more challenging, i just wonder how much the dynamic of my house will change?

My BF and i are still trying and working with each other. Some days are better than others. His brother broke his back a few weeks ago so that has been really trying on our realtionship as he is constantly away from home helping his brother. I gave my truck back to the finance company yesterday. I can afford my payments, but barely. and with my work being cut in half and my house on the market not selling, im scared of drowning finacially. But now this means I have no vehicle and I am totally reliant on my BF and his car. That alone makes me cry daily. Im not used to feeling so helpless. It also irritates me that he wont even let me lift my 3 year old, so now she doesnt even ask me for help! she automatically yells for him, even when im standing next to her. Ugh. It seems i cant be pleased lately!

I just want ace to hurry up and get here.

I wonder if his head being so low and all these braxton hicks contractions are an indication of him arriving sooner than expected?