14-10-2008 - 40weeks+1day

My mood while writing this blog: worried, aggravated

Well today I'm officially overdue. lol I know it's only one day, but I knew I would go over. Still no signs of her wanting to come either.

Surprisingly I am not as fed up or frustrated as I thought I would be. I think it is possibly because I have started to think about how things are going to be once my little girl gets here. Yes obviously I can't wait for her arrival and I really, really want to hold her in my arms and see what she looks like. But last night when I went to bed I was thinking how once she gets here everybody is going to be fussing over her, wanting to hold her all the time. I know it sounds a little selfish, but I don't mean it like I don't want anyone else holding my little girl other than me or whatever. I just have this horrible feeling about my future Mother-in-Law. So now I'm just enjoying these last few days 'alone' together with my little girl. Sounds silly I know.

But I can see that woman trying to take controll and always wanting my daughter in her arms or whatever. She never had any daughters herself and this will be the first Granddaughter. I know she is excited and wants to meet her Granddaughter, but when she asks me three times in the space of two hours if there is any signs of her coming, I just get aggravated by her.

She also keeps making comments like "if I am there at the hospital when you have her". It's making me think she wants to be there for the labour, or wait around at the hospital while I am having her so she can be there to tell me what I am doing wrong straight away. I do NOT want her in the room with me during any part of my labour, I do NOT want to see her straight after my labour. She can wait, if there was anyone other than Jamie that I wanted there it would be my mother. But I think the birth and the first hours should be spent with just the 3 of us together. If she even tries to come along like it is a family outting I will just snap at her and tell her where to go.

Anyways, lol once I get thinking about it I can't stop. So My little one is staying put and I don't mind I said to her last night (I always feel a right looney when I say I talk to my belly.) I understand why she is staying there and she can stay put until they force her out. We've waited 40 weeks. whats another 13 days to wait hey. I'm sure they will fly by.

I've got the midwife this week, and even though I am 40 weeks I got this strange feeling she isn't going to tell me that we have made any progression in being engaged I'm expecting to still be 3/5th.

Sorry I just had to vent about his mother. I feel bad telling him and I just had to get it off my chest.