30-11-2008 - 20th Birthday

My mood while writing this blog: Okay

Well Sunday was my 20th birthday, my first birthday with my little girl. We I saw my mommy card i got so excited lol.

Anyway Saturday night I left Olivia, for the longest time so far. Jamie and me went for a meal in town, and then went to a club afterwards, We didn't stay long we was in a taxi by 11 and home by half past. It was nice to have sometime alone together, we seemed very different with each other, I think I relaxed a little bit, but when I am around Olivia I go into Mommy mode. seems that way anyways.

I was in so much pain, my breast we're rock hard they looked fake seriously, i jked that i should have take my breast pump with me. I was so uncomfortable, lol as i've always been smalled busted i find it really strange having larger breast all of a sudden, and now understand why people who have bigger busts says its horrible. I felt comfortable in my dress when my breasts were empty but by the end of the night i felt like i was falling out of it. and looks i was getting wasnt making me feel any better, Nor did jamie, constantly staring at them.

I only phoned home two time while we were out, and i was alot more relaxed about it than i fort i would be, i though i would be phoning evry 5mins to check she was okay. but i knew she would be. She was golden for my mom, I was more at ease as my mom knows our little routine. She got her to sleep before her last feed as she had been awake all day, she couldnt poo and it was really upsettin her she kept waking up crying. When my mom went to feed her last fed she did not wake, slept through her nappy change. fed and winded and straight back down to sleep. and stayed sleeping until 4. :)

Shes been making little noises, Saturday she copied me oooooh'in at her and she was obviously so proud of herself she gave me a massive grin and little laugh. Shes doin really well with her development. I just hope her weight is back on track when i go today. Shes still being really sick all the time. Another thing im slightly worried about is her belly button, some days it looks completely healed up. the next it looks as though its got a little blood blister type thing on it and as though its bleeding. Ive been cleaning and drying it every day. Im going to mention it when i go today see what they say. I'm constantly worrying about her at the moment, mainly with the weight thing lol although everyone keeps saying its normal for their weight to be a little up n down, i cant help but worry. its just the amount she is being sick too.

Anyway going to get some breakfast before my little princess wakes up her next feed so i can get to baby clinic early, hopefully wont have to sit around waiting all morning. :( fingers crossed.