12-1-2009 - Pregnancy?

My mood while writing this blog: Confused and worried

So my little girl is now 11 weeks. she is doing brilliant she is growing so fast and fills my life with so much happiness. She has started being greedy lol well she has just started to have a little top up of formula after her breast feed again just simply becaue i cant seems to fill her up Me and Jamie (her Daddy) have been doing so much better, We had a few little probs over the past few weeks but we are pretty much over that, we have a few tiffs but we will get through it! =). We re trying really hard to find some where to live and fast but it seems like everywhere we find that we would be able to afford we get there too late and it has already gone.

Anyways at my eight week check i decided to start taking the mini pill - only form i could take since i am breast feeding. A few days after starting it i had a period which was around the 13th/14th December. On the 26th me and Jamie had sex for the first time. I hadn't really felt comfortable before. too tired ect ect. Anyways even though being on the pill and breast feeding i still cant get it out of my head that i could be pregnant again!=|. I forgot to take my pill on the 25th. but i remember to take it on the 26th, But i know not taking it properly lessens the effectiveness. The past few days i've been having crampy aches like i didnt when i was first pregnant with Olivia. I had a horrid metalic taste in my mouth too, feeling sick all day pretty much. I partly think maybe its me thinking about it constantly, and these feelings i am having arent pregnancy but just my body still recovering. I just don't know. I don't want to take a pregnancy test just yet think it may be too soon? I guess i am just scared in case i am. I really don't know how i would react if i am. =|

I just had to get it off my chest. I've told Jamie that i am worried. He keeps telling me to take a test he is obviously worried too. Especially since we don't know how sercure his job is at the moment as the company he works for is in administration. this is one of our worries regarding looking for someone to live too.

We have had a terrible start to 2009. Jays job leading to money troubles for us both, I have been constantly ill its just been one thing after another it feels, my mom and dad have basically spilt up. And know the worry of being pregnant again. uhhhh i guess, things can only get better right? trying my hardest to look on the bright side of things!

Anyways being a mommy keeps me sane, and makes me so happy. Liv's got her injections next week so i will get her weighed cause the last time i gt her weighed was when she had her last injections, i have had chance to get to baby clinic the past few weeks with christmas etc and being ill!

hope everyone is doing well! take care x