21-2-2009 - 17weeks

My mood while writing this blog: happy..

I feel so much happier when the sun starts shining. Ha probably wont last long though!!!! :)

So i have to go out this morning to get Olivia some more formula, up until monday night i was feeding her of a morning and last thing at night. then she all of a sudden(as she did wth the other bottles) decided that she didnt want me at all. there was no way i could get her to take my milk. I was talking to my mom about chaning her formula, since she seems to have piled alot of weight on fast. And i remember a friend saying how her little boy did and her friends so she changed the formula. I was also saying to my mom about how much she is sick still. Before going out i decided that i wouldnt change it and leave it until i get weighed again, i get to sainburys and they are totally out of SMA. No Gold nor White! cartons or tins! So i just thought well if i dont do it, its never going to be done. She took the bottle great, so she must like it just as much. and whats even better. she was NOT sick ONE LITTLE BIT!.

I guess on her nxt bottle she could just be sick, so i am trying not to get to excited that it may have stopped. Just keeping my fingers crossed. its not nice watching her be sick after her feed. and feels like constantly up until her next fed.

She still a very happy baby. she is constantly laughing and screaming (nice screaming though lol) at the moment. she trying her hardest to roll over she can get on to her side and just gives up bless her. She loves the mirror now too. we used to put her in front of it and wouldnt bat an eyelid. but now she smiles and laughs. We have a mirror at the bottom of the stairs so we sit on the stairs playing boo i hide behind her head and pop up above her. and she loves it so much. i love seeing her big pretty gummy smile. just the cutest thing ever. =) i am still very much in love with her. i think i fall deeper in love with everyday.

I feel great at the moment. I am not sure if its related to the better weather -as it seems to effect my mood. i get so down during winter. I just the feeling you get in spring/summer. or mayb it could be just due to the fact i am not breastfeeding anymore. My milk has completely dried up in my one breast, just worried about the other, in case i get mastitis come back YET again. so i wil have to keep a close eye on everything.

We're going out for the first time properly next week, hopefully anyways. Jay has a mate coming up from london that he used to go to school with. as i promised jay we would go out once i had stopped breast feeding, just proving a point that i sick to my word =P. plus i just feel like having a drink. i've not drank in so long i will probably be on me back after to glasses of wine! lol.

Anyways will update soon.