19-3-2009 - Arhhhhhhh

My mood while writing this blog: Tired

Hey just thought i would update quickly, I'm having a very strange week.
Hmmmm, Bless Olivia, I'm not totally sure if she has a cold coming or started gettin Hayfever early, she is very sneezy, has a running nose and her eyes look sore. She refused her breakfast and lunch, so I got a portion of sweetpototoe out for after her afternoon nap 'cause of her not eating, she took it, she didnt seem her usual self laughing etc when eating just taking it, i wasnt forcing her so i know she wanted it, she has still been taking her bottles fine. I have been checking her temperature keeping a close eye on her. and will carry on doing so!!!
She went down fine for bed. She is still being swaddle, which is something i really want to get her out of, I am thinking of unwrapping her when I go up, or maybe try it another not, and just not swaddling her when i put down. I don't know what to do for the best.

Thankfully, i've had my first period since having Olivia and stopping breast feeding. It is the longest i have been on since i was about 13, a week tomorrow, and it doesnt seem to be getting any lighter or nearer stopping. But the best thing about it was being able to start my pill finally. But i still haven't been able to get any loving in lol. I think thats is one problem me and jay are having not being as close as we used to, We were at it like no bodies bussiness before, when i was pregnant i was told i wasnt allowed to because of the placenta, then once that was given the all clear, it hurt to much. we have managed to a few time since having Olivia, but since stopping taking the pop i havent totally felt safe doing it incase of getting pregnant again.
All me and jay seem to be doing lately is argue, I just dont know if i am happy anymore. i am giving things time, as they did get better they just seem to have taken a turn for the worse again. We're still looking for a place to live, but since ya got made redundant and the current state of our country it doesn't look like it will happen soon. Jay is having a bit of trouble finding a job, the amount of people out of work is a joke, he is applying for so many jobs but not one of them has gotten back to him, even to say they no longer want to employe somebody, its just rude and so unfair. We never seem to have look in the money/job area.
Oh well we have our little girl who keeps us going.
She is going to grow up to be so beautiful. just hope she is okay. I am pretty sure she has a tooth coming in, little monkey wont let us take a look in her mouth though, either bites straight away, or puts her tounge there. I think i can feel something but 100% sure though, i've never felt a teething gum? lol

hope everyone is doing well.

xxx