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| 20-5-2009 - Twins & Gender |
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It is strange to know that this is my last pregnancy. I imagined the breeding years to be more spread out. And more thought out, for that matter. Our first child was sooo well planned. Then this pregnancy snuck up on us. I was breastfeeding and using multiple preventative measures. I got my mind around the idea of this pregnancy thinking "ok this baby will be really close to my first and they can be best buddies. Maybe we will try for one more baby more carefully in about 3 years or so." Yeah right. As if I am in control. This is a lesson I must learn. I am often times just along for the ride in my own life.
When we found out we were having twins I was soooo excited. So completely surprised, but very excited. It felt special, and fun. But thinking about it now, it means that I am done having kids. I am not exactly sad, but sort of feel unnerved by the way it all happened so fast.
Anyways, I realized also that if the twins are both girls then we will have three girls and no more kids. I don't think this is a bad thing, but I had always pictured some sort of mix in my family. I won't get the chance to obsess over it and try the special methods for conceiving the other gender. We will never have a son. That's just it. It puts the pressure on for this next ultrasound. Somehow the gender ultrasound unfolds sooo much of the picture of your future. You have the rest of your pregnancy to imagine 60 years down the road and picture your life once you get the gender clue. I have less than a month now before my fate is decided. Strange.
3 Comments on Twins & Genderscarletwillow -
Thursday, 21 May I hope you get at least one boy! Southernbell3 -
Wednesday, 20 May I know how you feel about the gender issue My hubby and I have two girls and we are hoping and praying that this one is a boy cause I think im officially gonna be done with having kids I think 3 is well enough for me. But if its a girl im gonna love her just as much as I would love a boy. Good Luck and the odds are in your favor you have a 2-1 chance that one may be a boy!! morgn -
Wednesday, 20 May It is amazing how much in our life we have no control over! I wish you luck and hope that one of the twins is a boy for you!