sfrizzell1's I-am-pregnantblog

sfrizzell1
	Age: Getting too old! lol Country: USA Province/region: City: Houston Partner: Happily Married Children: Yes, 3 Pregnant: No Due date: 09 0 ,0000 Occupation: Business Owner
	Online: More than 3 months ago Last updated: 692 days ago. Member since: 1023 days
\| Profile \| Photos (90) \| Children (3) \| Blog (61) \| Polls (0) \| Agenda (0) \| Comments added (12) \| Notepad

Members

Write a new blog

16-11-2009 - The Official Sophia Count Down

My mood while writing this blog:
Nervous, Anxious, Scared, Ready?

Ready or not, here she comes!!! WOW.... thats really all I can say. I'm sitting here looking at a calendar and the days are all starting to roll into one. Friday, November 6th, we were told 4-5 weeks tops before we are in the hospital delivering our baby girl via c-section. This week marks two weeks since we heard those words. Friday, November 20th is the official 2 week mark. Next week is Thanksgiving and my kids are out of school from Wednesday - Friday so our 3rd week seems to already be here and gone. Then the next week we could possibly be the proud parents of Sophia Ashlynn Burrows....... SO SOON!

I know I should probably stop looking at the calendar every chance I get but how can I not? Like the rest of you I cant wait to meet my baby but in so many ways, I would rather wait. I'm so scared. I've held up fine until this point. Yeah I've cried and had my moments but I was always able to pick myself back up and continue on. Now, I'm just scared and worried and my anxiety keeps building. What will she look like? Will her arms be better or wose than expected? Will her heart defect be better or worse than expected? Will she be bigger or smaller than the doctors think? When I am finally able to hold her for the first time, will she know who I am? What if I'm unable to hold her for days or weeks after she's born? Will she know how much I love and adore her?

My mom told me yesterday that some family members called her and asked her how I am doing. She told them, "Sara's just fine, she's ok." I wanted to scream, "no, I'm not fine, and I'm not ok. I'm terrified. I'm scared and my heart is so heavy." I cant tell anyone how I'm feeling. I'm an emotional wreck......

6 Comments on The Official Sophia Count Down

orone - Wednesday, 18 Nov
hang in there, she's going to be beautiful and perfect all in her own way. You always have us to turn to when you are happy, sad, scared, unsure...you are in my thoughts daily and I know you are going to get through this, and your daughter is going to be the biggest blessing you have ever had.

Amanda1101 - Monday, 16 Nov
I know you probably feel alone but remember you do have us ladies to vent to. Stay Strong! Just think you will be able to see your beautiful baby girl in just 3-4 weeks. She will be a perfect girl that is absolutely loved no matter what happens. I will keep you in my prayers. BTW, I love her middle name, it is so pretty!

NinaBo-Bina - Monday, 16 Nov
Yes, I do know how you feel. I have quite a bit of time before my jack is born but he will be born with Club Foot ( a genetic defect) I can only pray that it wont be so sever that it will cause him problem to walk later in life. He will have to undergo treatments for the 1st cpl years of his life. We never want our kids to have challenges. I know how you feel. Keep strong and keep asking God for the strength and protection.

JadesHotMom - Monday, 16 Nov
Aww huni. U don't even know how I pray that When the baby comes out she has both arms & Hands. And that she was just super Stubborn for the doctors. Its going to be okay & she will be here soon and that's exciting! Be positive and know that now u can hold her like uve been wanting to and talk to her . And shell look at u and giggle! When she's born it'll b one of thee happiest moments of ur life! Like it has been for the other LO's! I'm def praying for u always and want everything to be better than perfect for u. And ur Anxiety of seeing her I can understand that to an extent. Can't wait to see photos of ur new princess.

alittle88 - Monday, 16 Nov
I wonder to myself everyday how you are doing. I know that the pain and anxiety you feel is much stronger than mine but know that I do in a way understand what you are going through. My induction date is set for december 14th and I myself cannot help but wonder what she will look like, if there is anything wrong because of that injection. Try to stay positive and know that you are in all of hearts :)

NOPEY - Monday, 16 Nov
You are not the only one that is counting down the days... you got less days than most of us... but you need to hang in there.. and be stronger than ever..Of course Sophia will know who you are and how much you love her... I think this month is flying by.. I cannot believe next week is thanksgiving... I cannot wait to meet my boy and hold him in my arms and tell him how much and how deep we love him..

Photos