28-5-2009 - Well...20 days later...

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

So, twenty days late, AF arrives with a vengance!

I dont really know how to feel, aside from sore! Now, that I'm technically TTC, things feel a bit pressured... Not by hub or anything, he's so calm and cruisy, I dont even think he thinks much into it. But I feel pressure, and tension...I'm a bit scared, alot of things run through my head when I think "oh maybe I'm pregnant" I'm more scared then anything. Will I make a good Mum to 2 kids? Will I be able to cope, I mean as most of you know me and Simon live in Aussie and all of our family and 95% of our friends are all in New Zealand. I'm really scared that I wont cope having 2 young children. But I'm DYING to have another...I see all these babies and bellies and hear about the BFP's that people are getting and I feel slightly green with envy hehe!

For the time being, I'm stepping off the TTC bandwagon, and am just gonna take things as they come! Felix is so damanding at the moment, I just could not cope with morning sickness etc (I spewed hourly for 18wks with felix) right now with him running EVERYWHERE, and not sleeping well at night! Also for the first time ever, I'm actually doing something about my weight (aside from putting it on of course) I only have 10lb to go as ive already lost 8lb, so I have 10lb till I'm at my goal weight which i dont think will be too hard, but I'd like to maintain that weight for a least a couple of months before I start gaining back 30-40lbs like i did with Felix hehe.

Me and Simon will prolly still have condom-less sex, but I wont be focusing so much on making a baby.

Anyway, thats my news for the month! thanks for listening!!

Goodluck Daisy with ur delivery...hopefully princess is here sometime in the next couple of weeks :) YAY full term!!!

Blessed be Mamas, bellies and babies,

Shav x0x