01-3-2011 - 40 weeks

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

My due date came and my due date went with still no baby! I honestly never thought I would make it to my due date and neiter did anyone around me. So when I hit week 40 I had kind of thrown my hands up and given up on guessing when he might come.

We had some bad weather this week and I was thinking maybe he would decide to come when it would be a pain to drive to the hospital. Secretly I was hoping he would because then it would keep everyone from wanting to rush to the hospital but no such luck. It was just some sleet and snow showers here and there but nothing that really gathered.

We have pretty much laid low all week. Zach has had lots of homework so he has been doing that and since my house got cleaned last week there hasn't been a bunch housework for me to do so I have just been laying around and relaxing.

On Saturday I decided to get a pedicure because I know there are pressure points in the feet that can help trigger contractions. My gf and I went and it was nice to get out of the house and spend a day with a friend. It has been awhile since I pampered myself and so I was pretty excited. Now the last time I had a pedicure they just had the regular old massage chair that did your back ect. Um not this chair! It practically fisted me in my butt and vagina! I seriously about jumped out of my chair and was laughing so hard I almost peed. My gf looked at me like What? and so I texted her asking if she was just molested by the chair and she started laughing and said yes and she liked it lol. As much as I wanted it to stop it was making me have contractions so I just let it fist away! Needless to say it was an interesting pedicure and although it gave me contractions it didn't put me into labor.

On Monday I had another doctors appointment and I woke up feeling sick because I was so worried about her wanting to rush to induce me. I was 40wks 6 days and not having any contractions that would make me think labor was close. All I could think about was how my pregnancy was coming to and end soon and I just wanted it to be on his time and not through pitocin.

We got in there and she checked me first and said that I was still at 2 cm but had now effaced to 75% from 50% the week before. She said she helped me out and sweeped me and did a stretch, although it was kind of uncomfortable it wasn't as bad as I had been told a sweep can be. Then came the talk about inducing. She asked what I was thinking and how I was feeling and I told her I would like to hold out as long as she would allow me to in hopes of going into labor on my own. I was so relieved to hear her say that she agreed and thought that was the best plan and as long as things still look healthy then she would let me go into week 42. She scheduled me a stress test and a fluid check for Friday. I felt and instant sense of relief, I really want to labor naturally and I was so glad that she was on board with letting me go another week.

Everyone of my friends and family memebers thought I was crazy for wanting to keep going. Most of my gfs were begging to be induced after their dd and said they were just to uncomfortable they were just done. I tried to explain to everyone that I don't feel bad, yeah I get cramps and uncomfortable from time to time but nothing that makes me in any hurry and want to be induced. I would rather deal with the small discomfort and start labor naturally.

Last night I got woke up a few times with contractions that were painful and a few times I thought about getting up and moving around but they didn't continue in a pattern so I didn't bother. But this morning when I woke up I was having cramps and when I went to the restroom I noticed lots of blood tinged mucus and I got so excited! I am 41 weeks exactly today and hope that the sweep she did yesterday is sparking the beginning of labor.

It's now 4:45 pm and I have been getting cramps all day and still losing large chunks of bloody mucus so I hope this is my bloody show and it means labor is around the corner. I have been getting contractions that are painful but they aren't coming in any pattern so I am just waiting and resting. Zach and I went to lunch and now I am doing laundry and trying to get all the last minute things around the house done incase this really is it.

I have had so many emotions and feelings running through me all day. I am so excited at the idea of meeting my son but then the fear of labor creeps up and I have to breath and tell myself I can do this! It's also hitting me that being pregnant is almost over and I can soon call myself a mom and say that I have a son. Zach is calm as can be and is trying to finish up all his homework incase we have to go in. He said he's not nervous at all just ready for him to be here and so having him be so calm is really helping me realize we can do this and are going to be great parents. Our life is about to change forever and as much as change scares me I know that together we can totally get through the rough first few weeks and enjoy our new addition to our family.

So fingers crossed that this is my last weekly blog update and the next one I write will be the birth story about welcoming Wyatt Joel Proctor into this world and our hearts!