06-8-2008 - Sick!

My mood while writing this blog: Great

I have been sick this morning (6th August). I am so happy at being sick! I hope it is morning sickness and that I will have it everyday for a while, just so I know I am pregnant!

I hope it was morning sickness and not a bug or something. My boobs still are not sore and I had belly ache last night so that worries me.

It is so hard, I have being chatting to RachealDueMarch and she sent me a message today which made me think. It is so stupid yet we do it, we convince our self its bad news or worry about everything, don't get our hopes up so if something goes wrong it is easier to deal with. It is not any easier to deal with. I have had my fair share of m/c and none of them have been easier to deal with when telling my self it is not going to happen, I will m/c. It still crushes you. I have decided that from today I am going to try to have a PMA - Positive Mental Attitude! I want this baby so much and I am sared of it going wrong, part of me thinks that, but I am going to be positive. If it does go wrong at least I have been blessed with being pregnant in the first place. This time though it won't go wrong and I will have a baby in March. So will you others who are going through similar.

I also want to thank RachDueMarch. Although I have never met you, your messages help me everyday deal with all this and get through to the next day and think positive. Thank you so much. We will get our angels. xxxx