07-9-2009 - So tired.

My mood while writing this blog: .....

Thursday night I started having contractions. I was up the entire night and around 5 am I finally broke down and called my midwife. We went into the hospital at 6 am and started the monitoring process. Sure enough I was contracting every 3-4 minutes. Painful contractions. Unfortunately I was still only dialted about 2-3 cm. So we walked and walked. Nothing.

They ended up giving me meds to sleep because I was so exhausted from no sleep and I was in alot of pain. After 12 hours of being there I had only dilated to a little over 3 cm. And my midwife didn't want to induce or break my water because I wasn't actually over my due date. Which was fine.

I guess the discouraging thing is that nothing gives me relief. I'm exhausted but I can't get any decent rest because of the contractions. I'm tired of people hounding me asking if I've had him yet. Especially people I don't really talk to so much. I hate when people tell me to just have him already or ask when I'm going to have him. Well if I knew, it'd make life easier for all of us now wouldn't it. I actually am not using Facebook specifically because of that. I feel super uncomfortable and I can't even sit down more than a few minutes. I'm overly emotional and I've spent basically the last 3 days in tears on and off.

It sucks. I feel like a failure even though there's nothing I can do about it and I'm ok with waiting. He'll be out eventually but it's just so discouraging with everyone bugging us all the time.