It is raining and I am awake. I got up at 5 am. I am always getting up way to early now. We had a Dr. Apt yesterday. I am growing a monster in my belly. He is already almost 7 pounds and getting bigger by the day. He NEVER seems to sleep. He is ALWAYS moving and kicking me in the ribs and I lose my breath so easy now. My beloved husband was a 9 pounder and the tech seems to think this little guy is gonna be about 10. THANK GOD for C-sections.

I guess I am just writing from stress. My husband has not yet found a second job. My last day was last Friday and I am feeling useless and lonely. My mom moved away a few weeks ago and I wont see her that much any more. My computer blew up with the smell of smoke and everything. So I am forced to use my Hubby's and he is not the sharing sort. It annoys him a great deal. we don't have the money to replace or fix mine. our car is falling apart and the apartment we live in is going into foreclosure not that we have all the money to stay here even if we weren't going to lose the apartment. That and finding a place that will let you have pets (we have 4 cat's) is proving to be near impossible. If we can't find a place and if he cant find a job I fear we will have to move to Kansas (where he is from) and live in a house his mom owns and is empty at the moment. I am from NY .. I don't know if any of you have BEEN to Kansas but it is a complete culture shock. As a example... I have been with my beloved husband for 10 years. I went to his Prom with him.. lol oh my god.. I was (or guess in ways still could be called) a goth girl. My hair was flaming cherry red I wore a lot of black makeup and clothing... well after prom we went to meet his sister at a bar but he could not get in (Im 5 years older then him) so I went in to look for her. Not more then a few feet into the place a large LARGE pot bellied handle bar mustached man grabs me by the arm swings me around to face him and slurs into my face.. "It'taint Halloween round these parts Missy". Now this might sound funny (well it WAS) But when you are in it your not laughing and your pretty pissed some fat redneck had balls enough to put his hands on you. that kinda stuff has never happened to me here in NY!! People don't usually grab you... they are afraid you might cut them! lol. that's a joke! NYers are nice folk. Kinda.

OH MY GOD!!!!!!! what would I do in KANSAS if I was STUCK there all the time??

Then to top it all off my Hedgehog bit me! lol. I already have a scar on one wrist from him biting me and now I have a second! he really hates bath time so when I brought him into the bathroom the little booger bit me. ugh!! sorry about ranting.. I am just tired an frustrated and sleepy.