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| 21-8-2008 - The HSG Jitters | My mood while writing this blog:terrified |
So, I wasn't too nervous about my HSG scheduled today. Not really anyway. If it is anything like the endometrial biopsy I had yesterday, then it will be painful, but the doc gave me some pain meds that I am going to take before it. So, I thought I would get on the lovely internet to find more about it, what to expect, others' experiences etc. The thing about the internet-- it can be a blessing and a curse. I should've just stopped after I read the first comment on the HSG page I found, but I had to keep reading and reading. I couldn't stop! The majority of these women said it was the worst pain they've experienced, some worse than labor, rating it a 10 on the pain scale. Some women said it was a breeze and just mild cramping. It really depends on the doctor, and the situation of each woman I guess. Apparently, if your tubes are blocked it hurts a lot worse because of the dye trying to be pushed through them.
What if my tubes are blocked too? Do I really want to know? How can I not want to know anyhow? I really do need to find out. Or do I? All these thoughts began flooding my mind, as I read horror story after horror story. Now, I've worked myself into a frenzy of panic just thinking about going. I am terrified. For one, I don't like to be propped open for the world to see. I mean, afterall, who really does? The radiologist, and technician, and doc will all be down in my business. Maybe I should hold an exhibit, so everyone can get a look at the procedure and all my lady parts. (ha!) I am trying to breathe and remember that it's going to be short and maybe my experience won't be as bad as others. But, it's hard to relax after the procedure yesterday. The one yesterday only took 5-7 minutes, but it was excruciating and tears were streaming down my face throughout the whole thing. Maybe it was a little emotional pain as well as physical, and that's what did it. I don't know. It's hard to find out you're a little broken on the inside; it's even harder to forget that fact when they are doing something so intrusive.
Okay, I already feel better. I guess I needed to voice my fears and get it all out. I don't have to leave for a few hours and luckily my hubby got off work to come with me. One of my friends is watching the kiddos so everything is squared away. Wow. Okay, it won't be that bad. I just have to remember that this is just a step in the process, and I will be that much closer to the end result.
Thanks to all for letting me complain. More on the HSG later...
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