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30-8-2009 - NUMB

My mood while writing this blog:
bitchy

May feels like too far away... and i am really worried it's going to come and i wont have a baby.. like for example october is just around the corner (i was due in oct with my last pregnancy) and i will not have that baby.. i feel really bummed out and i dont want to get excited.... im actually trying not to think about it at all, and yet, already evrytime i go to the washroom i wipe and im a paranoid freak looking at the toliet paper making sure there is no spotting. i dont have a good feeling or a bad feeling about this pregnancy, actually i feel very NUMB to it all..

today i felt tightening on my left side, and already i was paranoid.. i have one beautiful girl already but every feeling i have makes me think its a bad thing..

my mother in law gave my hubby and i a card for congratulation us on the new baby (she did last time too) and i could barely smile.. it didnt feel real and i was like "oh great, hope this doesnt jinx me" i have a bad attitude today.

i wish i could see what the future has for me.. well at least as far as MAY 2010 anyways

5 Comments on NUMB

AbbottBaby2 - Tuesday, 1 Sep
I have been feeling the exact same way. I too was supposed to be having a baby in October. I dont want to get to excited about this pregnancy just to be disappointed but I keep telling myself that this is a whole new pregnancy and to stay positive, its hard. I run to the bathroom and check every half hour and I keep taking hpt to make sure they are getting darker. All I can do is wait, pray and hope for the best.

MRSSMITH600 - Monday, 31 Aug
Hi Shannon, I know exactly how yo are feeling. I was te same after my m/c. You just have to take each day as it comes and ry to enjoy being pregnant. Its a difficult time but yo will get through it x Of course your going to be paranoid and worried, who wouldnt be but it does get easier.

~ I luv my boyz ~ - Sunday, 30 Aug
After a m/c its totally normal to feel like this,I did not get overly happy til I hit 12 to 13 weeks or I got in some good u/s too back things up....I believe this bean will stick!!!!!!best of luck my dear and congrads on your baby!!!!!

ParkerNHarpersMom - Sunday, 30 Aug
Shannon..It's totally normal to feel this way. There's nothing wrong with the way you are feeling. When I first got preg with this baby (only one month after losing my last one AND it being my second m/c in a row) I was a paranoid MESS!!! checking everytime I wiped....my heart sinking with every tiny cramp....Finding it VERY hard to be happy. I even had dreams I was bleeding and would wake up expecting the worst.... As time goes by it will get easier, trust that your body will do what it needs to. Instead of focusing on how far away may is...focus on the pregnancy milestones...like the 12 week mark(chacne of losing the baby goes down)...20 weeks (half way)...37 weeks (full term)....it will make things easier.

liz82 - Sunday, 30 Aug
hun i am sorry i understand how you feel i will pray for you that your little one will be o.k

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