18-2-2010 - My Story

My mood while writing this blog: overwhelmed

So I decided to write a blog and tell my story....

My husband and I got married June 16, 2007. We started TTC in November 07. I had very irregular cycles so I was referred pretty quickly to a RE. I think my first appt with an RE was like May 2008. I did Clomid for a few cycles...maybe 4 or 5 and also monitored follicles and such with u/s and one month also added the ovidrel shot to induce ovulation to be sure the good eggs they saw were released and we had timed intercourse..not luck. So my RE suggested IUI which we weren't ready for at the time yet....They decided they wanted me to go off all fertility drugs and give my body a break..WHAT...are you kidding me. I became frustrated because I didn't like the nurses the whole time I was attending that particular clinic anyway. So I decided to switch doctors.

So I think my first appt was in December 08 or January 09 with my new doctor and I was excited because he was very anxious and wanted to be aggressive and said he was hoping that I was pregnant in 3 months or he was sending me to a bigger hospital with more expertise in Infertility. Well he suggested I have an HSG to see if my tubes were blocked. So I had that done January 7th, 2009 or around that date. My tubes weren't blocked...good news! My DH and I weren't even trying that month cause we were so burnt out at that point. So since my period is so irregular I knew it was about time to call the doctor and have them give me drugs to induce my period but I knew I had to take a pregnancy test first because that is the first thing they would have asked me....much to my surprise it was a BFP. OH MY GOD I was sooo shocked my husband and I weren't even trying and literaly probably only BD once that whole month and I wasn't on any fertility drugs and I still got pregnant..wow still completely in shock. I had some bleeding around 9 weeks 2 days doctors weren't concerned and either was I but they wanted me to come in for an u/s. My husband couldn't make it because they got me in so quickly but I didn't think I had anything to worry about so I went alone...much to our dissappointed no heartbeat. We had already seen the heartbeat at 5 weeks :( I could not believe this was happing to me it was the worst thing ever we were devestated. So we were advised after 3 cycles that we could start trying again. So we tried on our own no drugs for about 4 months...no success. Once again I wasn't happy with my new doctors office and how they handled things and never really knew who I was when I called to ask questions. So I decided to call the hospital in our area with more expertise in Infertility.

My first appt there was 8/27/09. They had me start using Letrozol, Follistem, Ovidrel shot combination and then we did timed intercourse...no success. The shots really stimulate your ovaries so after that I had to go 1 month without doing anything my body needed a break. So November we were back at it again this time doing Letrozol, Follistem, Ovidrel Shots and IUI. Much to our delight we got pregnant with the first IUI....found out on December 16, 2009 that I was pregnant what a great x-mas present!!! We had our first ultrasound January 7, 2010 and they informed us that our baby wasn't growing as it should be and had a low heartrate. It should have been measuring 7 weeks 1 day and it was measuring 5 weeks 4 days BUT there was a heartbeat..good sign. The doctor told us that this would probably end in miscarriage and we needed to reschedule another u/s in a week and we remained hopeful that all would be ok...we didn't want to go through this again after all we have been through to get this far. On January 14, 2010 we had our u/s and there was no heartbeat.....They told me I have to wait 2 normal cycles before trying again. We should have IUI in about a month or so. I just pray that my next pregnancy will be a success I don't know how many times I can go through this mentally or financially.

Sorry for the long blog I have been doing this for a long time:(

The doctors say I have unexplained fertility and they don't know why I am having miscarriages either. One doesn't have to do with the other they just said I am unlucky in both areas...:(

My sister had 2 miscarriages and now has a beautiful baby boy!!