27-5-2009 - Dilemma with Dustin

My mood while writing this blog: Anxious

Dustin and I have not been in much contact the past couple months after our break-up. Now, he has come back to me announcing his plans to take the baby and raise it with his new fiance. How could he? She has never expressed interest in being a mother, first of all. And it blows me away that she wants to marry the man who crushed me so recently (he cheated on me with her over a long period). How could he try and take away this baby after his deceitful and hurtful actions? He said he still loves me and just wants to provide since I can't. It leaves me with no option of adoption. Not wanting him to have the baby is no reason to fight to keep the baby. It's not like that at all. But I simply do not trust him and know the child would not grow up in a loving healthy family. What's best for the baby is my priority. Dealing with this obstacle adds to the compications of determining and pursuing what gives the child a happy life. I will do everything in my power to make the wisest decision.