13-4-2008 - dr.jekyl

My mood while writing this blog: frusterated

i originally went on to this site for advice on mothers in law...since mine is a dr.jekl/mr.hyde kind of woman...i wont get into that though....my worry was how to tell her...my fiance is an only child who had a sister that passed away...the mil has never liked me, but told me she was glad her son had a positive influence...until we got pregnant(my second daughter)...youm would think i had raped him and stole his sperm...the way she treated me...since then she has bribed him with anything and everything to get himto abandon his family, and begging me for hours on end to abort the baby saying that god didnt want out baby to live and comments like that...now she loves her grandaugters, but still reminds me all the time how ive ruined her fanilies lives and that we should have aborted her...nothing i can do is right and she has tried to take it into her hands how to raise my kids and how me and her son should live our lives...she is relentless, so of course i was apprehensive about sharing the good news with her again...my fiance ended up just blurting it out to her about two weeks ago while she was about to leave our house, that it looked like were pregnant again, all she said was that we had better hope we werent and shes barely talked to me since..jason has now invited her to be in the hospital with us when i go into labour since my mother was there at the birth of both my daughters, but i for one just dont feel comfortable with it, she tells me what to do enough and just the sound of her voice gives me a headache, how can i deal with that and give birth at the same time...i can guarentee at some point i will be asking her to leave, and shell just take it personal and make sure her control over his and our childrens lives will be stepped up a few notches...i just dont know how to deal with it...believe it or not this is the short version of whats been going on....