11-6-2008 - Friday, April 25 2008

My mood while writing this blog: blessed

I am currently in my 18th week (however me knowing my last period and the conception date I believe today I am starting my 19th, but lets humor the doctor..lol), this is my 3rd pregnancy, my first ended in a miscarriage, my 2nd in a beautiful soon to be 7 yr old..(wow!!!! I am getting old!) and now here I am with my unexpected but very much wanted lil bundle of joy who I hope today will allow me to see what he/she is.... I currently am going at this alone, the father lives in another state, and to make a looooong story short, I made a choice to keep my lil bundle and do it with me and my beautiful daughter.....Its very hard but I know in a few years this moment and time wont matter how I felt "sorry" for myself, but with the joy of my children will let me know that I in fact am very lucky to be able to do this again! My family is the greatest, my mother is the best support she will get up (she works midnights) and go to my ultra sounds and apts with me....I did luck out, so I cannot complain, my family are the absolute greatest and I am thankful that I do have them to be here for me when it gets a lil rough....:) I know many ppl have their thoughts on unwed mothers, and to tell you the truth I honestly thought we'd do this right, he just completely shocked me, however, we are handed things in life that the "big guy" knows we can handle....sometimes I just wish he didnt think I was so strong..:) I wish all of you luck and hope you get to enjoy your pregnancies :) All this "hard work" will be over with faster than we know it, then we have a 7 year old lookin at us and just growing way to fast, so enjoy and cherish every single moment,, yes even the varicose veins, heartburn, and the vomiting....lol