05-1-2009 - The End of IVF Cycle 4

My mood while writing this blog: Sad, Angry, Confused

December 17th: I moved all this information to a blog. I finally got my BFP today. This will be the start of my pregnancy journey. hCG: 22.1 Progesterone: 22

December 19th: Went for blood work this morning. My numbers are not rising enough so I have to go back on Sunday for more blood work. hCG: 25.7 Progesterone: 25.3

December 22nd: Went for blood work yesterday. My numbers are dropping and it has been confirmed to be a non-viable pregnancy. They stopped all my meds yesterday and said I should start bleeding in 2 - 9 days. I go back on Saturday to make sure my number are negative for pregnancy and then I have to schedule a follow up appointment with my doctor to discuss our next steps. As most of you know, this was our one and only frozen embryo and medical insurance will no longer cover IVF treatment. hCG: 21.4 Progesterone: 21

December 23rd: I had a couple spots of light pink blood last night and now nothing. I was hoping a praying that my little bean is just taking his or her time implanting but the doctors told me at a blastocyst transfer it should have implanted within 48 hours of the transfer and my levels should be much higher. I guess I was just holding on to hope. I asked my very best friend (who passed away on June 6th) to give me a sign that everything was going to be okay yesterday and well she did. My garage door wouldn't go down so I truly believe things will work out for the best and hubby & I will be just fine. We started to discuss adoption as there are so many kids out there that need a family and a good stable home. We both agreed that we have so much to offer a child and biology isn't what's truly important, but the love we have to give and the home and security we have to offer is what matters most. And if God blesses us with a miracle of our own, then that is what was meant to be. I want to thank you all for your thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. And as I told hubby, it's not over until AF shows. Until then, we are still pregnant and I am treating my body as such. I want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas or Happy Hanukkah and a very safe, healthy and happy New Year.

January 5, 2009: So here's how my cycle ended...I started spotting on December 24th and AF (miscarriage) was in full force by December 25th. Went for blood work on December 27th and my hCG level was still not zero. After a few days of heavy bleeding, my levels were down and this cycle has officially been closed. My husband & I have a conference call with my doctor on Wednesday (1/7/2009) at 1:00pm to discuss what may have happened and what we can do next. Unfortunately, unless it's free, we no longer have insurance to cover IVF treatment so we will continue to try the "old fashioned way" while looking into adoption. I want to thank you all for taking this (wild) ride with me and wish you all the best in the new year. I'll update again after my consultation.