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| 23-5-2008 - 5 weeks later |
My mood while writing this blog: okay |
Well, my baby is here which is what I couldn't wait for! I love him with all my heart and soul and honestly can scarcely remember when he wasn't here! However, I am in this whirlwind life of little sleep, no time for myself, and being a 24/7 meal stop for Lennon........Getting on the computer rarely happens because I NEVER sit unless I am nursing and still haven't mastered the laptop one handed. My Lennon is a crier, and I mean
alot.........almost colic but apparently colic is unsoothable crying. Lennon can be soothed with constant attention but being a mom of 6 and running a daycare with 8 additional children does not leave time to hold him all the time. The good thing is that during the daycare hours he is usually quiet, either sleeping or eating. He is usually alert in the late afternoon and evening. I figured I would never let him cry and I regret to say that I have had too. Sometimes I feel horrible but there is only one of me. It is kind of comical because I had five other babies who rarely fussed when I was younger. I think God must have known as an older mother I would have more patience. However, as a younger mother I never felt guilty letting my babes "cry it out", perhaps because I had back to back twins?? or because that is what everyone seemed to do at the time. Now, however, I feel guilty if I cannot rush like it's the Indy 500 to his every beck and call! Does anyone else feel this emotion?
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