26-9-2009 - danyal is 4months old! & a year ago today i got my first BFP in years with Danyal!

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Hey ladies hope this blog find you well...... Im soo happy today because my baby boy is 4 months old already!! And enjoyed his first rusk in milk this morning and he LOVED it!!! Im so excited and iv'e stocked up today with some more baby food he can try from 4+months and baby juice and mineral water with a splash of apple juice yummy!!

Also im casting my mind back exactly a year ago today, I had my first (even though feint) BFP with him and i remember it was wonderful we'd benn trying for roughly six months solid and every month that i got a BFN got me down also because we wanted a baby brother or sister for our daughter Elisha who'd bugged me for a sibling for years! And she was suffering from pannick attacks and anxiety which led to depression and i knew a baby would pick her up and make her life so much happier and it has she still gets anxious sometimes about going into busy shopping centres and school too sometimes because she has to see the bully daily but she wasn't prepared to leave the school she loved, and why should she! So all in all compared to just over a year ago she's soo much brighter! So for that reason it's made getting pregnant with her now brother all the more important to us!

So anyway i'd been looking for symptoms for a long time, and this fateful day 26/09/08, was like any other my AF was 2 days away, so i wasn't late or had any real strong symptoms i felt ok just used to fantacise about finally getting two lines instead of one on that damn stick lol! So i went to the bathroom with my trusty preego stick, after laying in bed wondering is this our month? So as i sat there i looked at the stick control lone came up straight away and seconds later the feint second line!! My heard started racing, could this be?? so i waited longer and yeah no denying it my BFP!! i was on top of the world i went straight down to Mo who was going out to work and showed it to him, his face aww what a picture! He was soo happy and said Congratulations! Bless him i said to you too! I screamed we did it!! YEEEAAAHHH!

So next i decended on Ellie who was fast asleep well until i raced in there waving a stick in front of her and she looked at me and said ewwww gross get that away from me! lol! it's cuz of the fact i dipped it in urine kids hey! I made sure it was dry and clean! She was soo happy and leaped out of bed to take a peek from afar! Oh the memories! Then we logged onto here after letting it sink in and taking pics and uploaded them for everyone to see yippee! there still there now lol!

So happy anniversarry of my BFP!!!!

Also 2 weeks today im getting married!! Yipppeee finally i'll be a Mrs instead of miss! A wifey to my amazing hubby to be Mo!! Im soo excited but nervous too! Its not gonna be an extravegant affair it will be a simple registry office which weve seen and is very nice, thats what we want with people around us who mean the world to us the end result will be the same but less the debt! Also mo's selling his gorgeous sports bike to fund this bless him and splash out without us having to have saved for years or loaned money i know its his baby so im so proud of him but since weve had danyal he hasn't used it once shame as its gorgeous!! So why delay any longer we thought weve been togther 15 years soon! hehe!

Anyway thought i'd share this news plus a few memories of today's date a year ago bliss! and my boy being 4 months and weaning take care love steph and baby danyal! xxxxxxxxxxxx