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18-4-2009 - "Sir, is she human?" Why yes, today I think she is.

My mood while writing this blog: happy

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The ultrasound has been booked, with a well-planned hairdressing appointment just before... that should keep a girl busy for that horrible last hour before a scary ultrasound... lol...

5w6d: Today I think I'm doing ok. I feel, and look, a lot further along than what I actually am. I'm not sure if it's just because it's only been six or so months since I was pregnant last and all the muscles have just surrendered at the first sign of hcg and progesterone... or maybe it's just that I've been eating too much... A combination of the two perhaps? Hehe...

And that brings me to my newest worry... I am a secondary school teacher and I have been on Easter holidays for the past two weeks. My concern is that I have VERY nosy colleagues and VERY nosy students - mainly because they all watched last year's tragedy unfold, up close and in high definition - and I think they will guess that I am pregnant well before I want them to know... Or perhaps I do want them to know... It would be pretty nice if people stopped whispering to the new employees 'See that girl over there, with the tired eyes? Well, her baby son died last year. She just hasn't been the same since...' I don't know anymore. Every day brings a different plan, a different approach, a different coping mechanism to trial... and I don't mind... I think it just comes with the territory... Though it is a little busy in my head sometimes... I just really hope things turn out ok this time... being pregnant is just such a public thing and I really don't want to be the train wreck that everyone cranes their neck to look at anymore...

That rant aside... today really has been a good day... I have a growing awareness of the little one... and that is bringing the promise of a peace I haven't experienced in a very long time...

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1 Comments on "Sir, is she human?" Why yes, today I think she is.


whosyourmama - Saturday, 18 Apr
No matter what we do or how much we try to hide it we can't help the ignorant people around us. You have been blessed once again so be proud of your little one show him or her off to the world because deep down inside you want the world to know!!