23-3-2009 - Just Venting

My mood while writing this blog: so so

Hello ladies! ...I hope all is well with you all. Well, I just thought I would let some of my feelings out...Well, for one ladies-I am an emotional wreck!!! seriously. I feel so horrible right now. Like, I am in the mood as to where I dont feel like talking to anyone. And, I know I shouldnt be this way, but its the only way I know right now. Those braxton hicks contractions are killing me. Its so irritating. Like, they dont hurt as to where I should be worried or anything, they are just so annoying. I hear a lot of people say they forget how a menstrual cycle is while pregnant. HOW CAN YOU FORGET WITH THESE DARN CRAMPS!!! Only thing I am missing is the 'you know what', but other than that, I feel like I am having that time of the month. Also, I LOVE taking baths but I HATE getting in and out of the tub. I am so small, but feel so huge. Like, yesterday, I was taking me a bath, but when I went to get in there, I sort of 'plopped' down. It was kind of funny, but really, that is sad I cant even hold my own little bit of weight up. Speaking of weight, I have gained 34lbs already. Well, I dont look that big whatsoever, but, I sure do feel that big. I got that little pregnancy 'waddle' in my walk. I look like a little duck walking around with my big stomach underneath me!!! Another thing, I am so tired of my ob/gyn I go to. They act like they cannot tell me any information. They will sit me in the room, check my uterus, blood pressure, weight gain...and throughout the day, all you hear is, 'perfect, right on time..' Like, seriously, I know my pregnancy isnt perfect!!! Tell me something!!!That bugs me so much. And the doctor will sit in the room and ask me so many questions about me being ready and what do I plan to do after the baby is born and stuff like that, I guess being nosey. And, they will just sit there and write stuff in my papers, and I am like, 'Damn, what are you writing down...' Feels like I be getting interviewed!!! Man, I have so much to vent about but I know I sound like I am nagging. But, I am not, I just have a lot bottled inside me and need to let it out. Cant really talk to my hubby, cause he doesnt understand. And, I cant talk to family and close friends cause all they really say is, 'oh...yeah, so sorry to hear that...I understand'. IT SUCKS!!! I am so ready for my little girl to get here, SO READY!!! If being pregnant was only 30 weeks instead of 40...I would be so happy!!!! If any of you made it to the end of this blog without your eyes falling out...THANK YOU FOR PAYING ATTENTION!!! and Thank you for actually caring enough to read the blog...