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Well I need a place to vent so here it goes. It has been almost 3 weeks sine my husband left us. He has seen the children once. He has not gotten his clothes out of the house and calls very little. Last night was our sons last baseball game. I texted him the location of the game, the time and what field he was playing on. Ten minutes before the game he texted back that he had no gas to make it. I was angry. I told him the day before that if it meant seeing the chidlren I would give him gas money. So the kids could see there day. I dont believe it is my problem since he left and moved in with her but I want him to be there for the kids so whatever. After the game he texted and asked me to have our son call him. Once we got home and everyone was ready for bed I had our son place the call. He talked to the children for about 2-3 minutes and got off the phone. My youngest son came into my bedroom and strated asking questions. He asked if daddy had another baby because in the background he heard a baby saying daddy over and over again.(Which is guess is his mistresses children since she is supposed to be pregnant with his) He was very upset and went a got the tissue box and crawled into bed with me. I talked to him and asked how he was feeling. Once things settled down I texted my husband and told him what was going on. Of course he called back and talk to our son and told him that he was staying at a friends house and that was their cousin that he heard. Which is lies. Once they got off the phone our son told me he did not believe him and was still very upset. Once everyone was asleep I called him myself to find out what he were going to start telling the children because they are beginning to ask questions and are upset. He was very rude to me and I heard the homewrecker whore say "Tell that bitch to stop calling you." If she would of stopped to listened to the convesation she would hear that the call was not concerning me and him but our children. He hurried up and got off the phone with me. (When ever I do talk to him I never bring up anything to do with us because I dont want him to stay away from the children because of me. I am trying every hard to keep the two seperate.)I texted him my angry thoughts on her comments but of course I have not heard anything. I call him very little and when I do it is about the kids. The last time I called him was a week ago. The kids on the other hand do call but most of the time he does not answer or never calls back. In fact over the weekend one of the chidlrne called him to see if he could come over and see them. He left a message explaining what he wanted . Hours later I received a text message asking what our child wanted. Damn- you cant listen to the message or call yourself to find out. This woman knows we are married and that we have three chidlren and he is allowing her to keep him away from them.(This is how I fell anyways) If she was not strong enough to handle the situation she should never have put her into the situation. I feel all she cares about about her that she got what she wanated and that was him- Fuck everyone that has been hurt. I am almost sure if he was still with me he would not be doing her this way. He wouldhave seen her by now and would have talked to her by now. And that hurts me. She does not care about what she is doing to my children and I am the one left trying to hold things together and safe their feelings. I deal with it everyday. He was made promises in the last several weeks that he will be over to see the kids and never shows. When I have asked what happen that he did nto show up I get I didnt make it. He promises them to call and never does. In fact this Thursday he has told the chidlren that we are going to a 4th of July thing that we do every year. When the kids hung up the phone they told me what he said and then said they dont believe that he will come. It hurts me some much to see my chidlren hurt and want their daddy. I have to explain things to them but at the same time I have to protect their feelings. I have not told them the truth. All I have said is that daddy made the choice to leave and he is not coming back. That me nor they did anything wrong to make him leave. Why should I do his dirt and tell them the truth. He created this he needs to handle it. I am left with the house at least for now (We have not discussed anything details yet)and three children and all the bills by myself. he has not asked once if we need anyting. I do work full time but the expenses are crazy. I am angry and hurt that he his doing this to our children and of course I am still sad that my marriage has ended.I would have never thought he would or could do this to us. Our marriage has had its ups and downs and sure I had thoughts what if it doesnot work between us but to do this to the chidlren. But I guess it shows that you do not know everything about anyone no matter how long you know them.
7 Comments on Homewrecking whore
dannii - Wednesday, 2 Jul
what a bastard, its bad enough he has left you but to treat you and the kids so badly is disgusting!! and as for her she should be burnt at the stake lol!!! women shud have more dignity and respect for each other than to mess with somebody elses man!!!! she truly is the scum of the earth!!! i think you have to sit down and talk to ur kids he obvioulsy isnt gunna do it they may feel more setteld and secure if at least one of u can be honest i know its hard trust me i been there, i wish you all the best chin up girly and F**K the pair of selfish horrible bastards they are not worth ur emotions xxxxxxx
K~teaNewMommy - Wednesday, 2 Jul
men are such effin Pieces of sh*& it truly makes me sick, but know that you have a lot of support on here, i am dealin w/ similar situation, not married but found bf w/ another girl who is claimin is his cousin over the weekend, too bad i found her on his friends list on stupid myspace.... remember how strong you are n can be for u kids..... i truly wish you the best n will keep u in my thoughts, if u ever need to talk/vent whateva know us girls r here for u
lv2bamommy - Tuesday, 1 Jul
Hey sweetie! I'm so sorry you are going through this!
It sounds like to me your kids are already figuring their dad out, I don't really think you need to explain a lot to them. They know who is there tucking them in at night, who's at there games, and who keeps there promises to them.That SOB is going to regret the way he is treating your children. Eventually if he keeps it up they won't want anything to do with him. As for that B*^#% , you don't need to stoop to her level, she obviously has self esteem problems if she can't even handle him talking to you. You're right, she doesn't give a damn about what she has done to your family, But, shame on your husband for letting her do it. Now, he needs to man up and take some responsibilty for what he's done. I'm so pissed at them both for doing this to you and your children. If ever you need to talk I'm here!!
yADA - Tuesday, 1 Jul
GIRL JUST BY READING THIS BLOG HAS ME SITTING AT MY DESK HEATED!!!! SHE NEEDS TO STAY IN HER PLACE AND MIND HER FUCKING BUSINESS IF YALL ONLY DISCUSS THE KIDS THEN WHATS THE FUCKING PROBLEM, WHY TREAT YOU LIKE YOUR THE HOME WRECKER WHEN SHE WAS THE ONE THAT INTERVEINED SHE HAS SOME NERVE DUMB SLUT! YOU KNOW WHAT SHE WILL SEE IN THE END WHAT HE IS REALLY ABOUT IF HE CAN GET UP AND WALK OUT ON HIS MARRIAGE AND KIDS HE WILL WALK OUT ON HER ASS AS WELL. WHAT DOES SHE HAVE THAT YOU DONT HAVE, YOU BEEN THERE HOLDING DOWN YOUR MARRIAGE KIDS AND HIM AND NOW WHEN SHIT GETS TOUGH HE WANT TO UP AND LEAVE AND LAY UP WITH THE NEXT BITCH AND HAVE KIDS WITH HER. MEN KILL ME I SWEAR THEY JUST DONT HAVE A CARE IN THE WORLD AND NOT TO WISH BAD ON ANYBODY BUT ONE DAY HE WILL LEAVE HER WITH KIDS TO RAISE AND HE WILL SUFFER GOD DOES NOT LIKE UGLY AND I BELIEVE IF YOUR GOING TO SEPERATE THEN SO BE IT BUT HANDLE IT ALL THE WAY BEFORE HE START MAKING OTHER FAMILIES UGHHHHHHHH IM SO DISGUSTED RIGHT NOW. EITHER SHE WILL RUN HIM THRU THE DIRT OR HE WILL FUCK HER OVER AS WELL BUT TRUST AND BELIEVE HE WILL SUFFER. GIVE THE BABIES AS MUCH HUGS AND KISSES AND LET THEM KNOW MOMMY IS THERE AND WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO MAKE THEM HAPPY AND DADDY HAS SOME ISSUES. IM SO ANGRY AND HURT
*First*Time*Mommy* - Tuesday, 1 Jul
OMG sweetheart, i am sooo sorry that you are going thru this, alone. I think you really need to go to court as soon as possible to end this. That way he can pay child support and help you out. Growing up my mom work 2 jobs to support 3 kids, it was extremely hard on her. She would eat a sandwich for dinner, while the kids had a nice meal. I think the father should be the one to tell his kids the truth in this matter. Your doing the right thing but not telling them, but if he never does, or says he is not willing to, then tell the dad, that u are gonna tell the kids the truth and he needs to know that whatever u say, the kids are going to listen to, bc the kids are smart enough to realize "not to believe daddy anymore". And i dont know what that whore's problem is about calling you a bitch, its not like u have done anything wrong ,and if he cant stand up to her and tell her it is about OUR kids, than that shows you what type of man he actually is. I am sure she isnt the greatest thing on earth that he has to be so wipped by her. You can make their life hell with court and everything bc he cheated and has a baby on the way...im not saying do anything low blow, but look what he did...i say, dont go easy on him. Because what u go easy on him for, his mistress is also getting and that bitch doesnt/shouldnt get ANYTHING from you. He was wrong to do what he did, so now he needs to face up and own up to it and be a damn man. Hell, for the kids sake, u know? I wish i was right there with you, helping you thru this. I feel so bad, but dont worry, it only gets worse before it gets better. I can tell that you are putting the kids first, and not worrying about fixing a broken marriage right now, and to me, it seems like he is running from his problems. If he doesnt want to see his kids anymore than fine, but dont break their heart, and leave you to pick up the pieces you know? How horrible. You are such a better person for handling the situation like your handling it. Cuz i would have already punched him in the face and slapped that mistress! LOL. I bet you can see yourself doing it, but hold back. Its good to think that way, makes u sorta feel better on the inside, even if you dont go thru with it. LOL. Oh and try not to forget that the mistress is probably filling his head with soo much shit, and he believe her, however it is up to him in the end to stand up to her, u know? She probably talks bad about u in front of her kids, and kids no matter if they are not yours or not, should not here that about another person. I know you probably dont talk dad about the dad in front of your kids, and that is the best way to go, bc they will remember that dad/the mistress always did, and you never did, and they will respect you more when they are older for handling it sooo maturely. Like i said, ur doing a great job, keep ur head up!
MiGal76 - Tuesday, 1 Jul
I am so sorry you are going through this. First of all, I myself would tell the kids the entire truth. The two older ones need to know and are old enough to understand and make their own decisions about their dead beat dad. Also when you do go to get divorced tell the judge about him and that he is the one who committed adultry. Then I am almost sure that the judge will completely side with you. He is the one who broke up the marriage. Again I am so sorry. If you need to talk I am here for you.
J9 - Tuesday, 1 Jul
hey, gosh that is just horrible... you are so strong dealing with this in the way you are and I totally agree that you are going about it in the right way, trying to keep the marriage and children things separate. I'm a child psychologist and so have seen really sad cases where kids are caught up in the middle or acrimonious breakups where both partners are trying to blame each other and using the kids. You aren't doing that and that's just so strong of you given the circumstances. Have you thought of writing him an email? It would give you the chance to get things out in more detail than a text but with no interruptions like the phone calls. If you do, i'd keep it very matter of fact since he sounds like he switches off. he needs to remember that his children love their daddy and are scared and confused about him leaving. They don't know what is going on which probably makes them feel even more scared cause their imaginations are left to run wild. Remind him that those children were conceived out of love and deserve his commitment even if his feelings for you have changed... he just needs to do the right thing. Sorry to go on, I just really feel for you and hope you find a path through this... xxx
| 01-7-2008 - Homewrecking whore |  My mood while writing this blog:Angry out of my mind |
Well I need a place to vent so here it goes. It has been almost 3 weeks sine my husband left us. He has seen the children once. He has not gotten his clothes out of the house and calls very little. Last night was our sons last baseball game. I texted him the location of the game, the time and what field he was playing on. Ten minutes before the game he texted back that he had no gas to make it. I was angry. I told him the day before that if it meant seeing the chidlren I would give him gas money. So the kids could see there day. I dont believe it is my problem since he left and moved in with her but I want him to be there for the kids so whatever. After the game he texted and asked me to have our son call him. Once we got home and everyone was ready for bed I had our son place the call. He talked to the children for about 2-3 minutes and got off the phone. My youngest son came into my bedroom and strated asking questions. He asked if daddy had another baby because in the background he heard a baby saying daddy over and over again.(Which is guess is his mistresses children since she is supposed to be pregnant with his) He was very upset and went a got the tissue box and crawled into bed with me. I talked to him and asked how he was feeling. Once things settled down I texted my husband and told him what was going on. Of course he called back and talk to our son and told him that he was staying at a friends house and that was their cousin that he heard. Which is lies. Once they got off the phone our son told me he did not believe him and was still very upset. Once everyone was asleep I called him myself to find out what he were going to start telling the children because they are beginning to ask questions and are upset. He was very rude to me and I heard the homewrecker whore say "Tell that bitch to stop calling you." If she would of stopped to listened to the convesation she would hear that the call was not concerning me and him but our children. He hurried up and got off the phone with me. (When ever I do talk to him I never bring up anything to do with us because I dont want him to stay away from the children because of me. I am trying every hard to keep the two seperate.)I texted him my angry thoughts on her comments but of course I have not heard anything. I call him very little and when I do it is about the kids. The last time I called him was a week ago. The kids on the other hand do call but most of the time he does not answer or never calls back. In fact over the weekend one of the chidlrne called him to see if he could come over and see them. He left a message explaining what he wanted . Hours later I received a text message asking what our child wanted. Damn- you cant listen to the message or call yourself to find out. This woman knows we are married and that we have three chidlren and he is allowing her to keep him away from them.(This is how I fell anyways) If she was not strong enough to handle the situation she should never have put her into the situation. I feel all she cares about about her that she got what she wanated and that was him- Fuck everyone that has been hurt. I am almost sure if he was still with me he would not be doing her this way. He wouldhave seen her by now and would have talked to her by now. And that hurts me. She does not care about what she is doing to my children and I am the one left trying to hold things together and safe their feelings. I deal with it everyday. He was made promises in the last several weeks that he will be over to see the kids and never shows. When I have asked what happen that he did nto show up I get I didnt make it. He promises them to call and never does. In fact this Thursday he has told the chidlren that we are going to a 4th of July thing that we do every year. When the kids hung up the phone they told me what he said and then said they dont believe that he will come. It hurts me some much to see my chidlren hurt and want their daddy. I have to explain things to them but at the same time I have to protect their feelings. I have not told them the truth. All I have said is that daddy made the choice to leave and he is not coming back. That me nor they did anything wrong to make him leave. Why should I do his dirt and tell them the truth. He created this he needs to handle it. I am left with the house at least for now (We have not discussed anything details yet)and three children and all the bills by myself. he has not asked once if we need anyting. I do work full time but the expenses are crazy. I am angry and hurt that he his doing this to our children and of course I am still sad that my marriage has ended.I would have never thought he would or could do this to us. Our marriage has had its ups and downs and sure I had thoughts what if it doesnot work between us but to do this to the chidlren. But I guess it shows that you do not know everything about anyone no matter how long you know them.
7 Comments on Homewrecking whore
dannii - Wednesday, 2 Jul
what a bastard, its bad enough he has left you but to treat you and the kids so badly is disgusting!! and as for her she should be burnt at the stake lol!!! women shud have more dignity and respect for each other than to mess with somebody elses man!!!! she truly is the scum of the earth!!! i think you have to sit down and talk to ur kids he obvioulsy isnt gunna do it they may feel more setteld and secure if at least one of u can be honest i know its hard trust me i been there, i wish you all the best chin up girly and F**K the pair of selfish horrible bastards they are not worth ur emotions xxxxxxx
K~teaNewMommy - Wednesday, 2 Jul
men are such effin Pieces of sh*& it truly makes me sick, but know that you have a lot of support on here, i am dealin w/ similar situation, not married but found bf w/ another girl who is claimin is his cousin over the weekend, too bad i found her on his friends list on stupid myspace.... remember how strong you are n can be for u kids..... i truly wish you the best n will keep u in my thoughts, if u ever need to talk/vent whateva know us girls r here for u
lv2bamommy - Tuesday, 1 Jul
Hey sweetie! I'm so sorry you are going through this!
It sounds like to me your kids are already figuring their dad out, I don't really think you need to explain a lot to them. They know who is there tucking them in at night, who's at there games, and who keeps there promises to them.That SOB is going to regret the way he is treating your children. Eventually if he keeps it up they won't want anything to do with him. As for that B*^#% , you don't need to stoop to her level, she obviously has self esteem problems if she can't even handle him talking to you. You're right, she doesn't give a damn about what she has done to your family, But, shame on your husband for letting her do it. Now, he needs to man up and take some responsibilty for what he's done. I'm so pissed at them both for doing this to you and your children. If ever you need to talk I'm here!!
yADA - Tuesday, 1 Jul
GIRL JUST BY READING THIS BLOG HAS ME SITTING AT MY DESK HEATED!!!! SHE NEEDS TO STAY IN HER PLACE AND MIND HER FUCKING BUSINESS IF YALL ONLY DISCUSS THE KIDS THEN WHATS THE FUCKING PROBLEM, WHY TREAT YOU LIKE YOUR THE HOME WRECKER WHEN SHE WAS THE ONE THAT INTERVEINED SHE HAS SOME NERVE DUMB SLUT! YOU KNOW WHAT SHE WILL SEE IN THE END WHAT HE IS REALLY ABOUT IF HE CAN GET UP AND WALK OUT ON HIS MARRIAGE AND KIDS HE WILL WALK OUT ON HER ASS AS WELL. WHAT DOES SHE HAVE THAT YOU DONT HAVE, YOU BEEN THERE HOLDING DOWN YOUR MARRIAGE KIDS AND HIM AND NOW WHEN SHIT GETS TOUGH HE WANT TO UP AND LEAVE AND LAY UP WITH THE NEXT BITCH AND HAVE KIDS WITH HER. MEN KILL ME I SWEAR THEY JUST DONT HAVE A CARE IN THE WORLD AND NOT TO WISH BAD ON ANYBODY BUT ONE DAY HE WILL LEAVE HER WITH KIDS TO RAISE AND HE WILL SUFFER GOD DOES NOT LIKE UGLY AND I BELIEVE IF YOUR GOING TO SEPERATE THEN SO BE IT BUT HANDLE IT ALL THE WAY BEFORE HE START MAKING OTHER FAMILIES UGHHHHHHHH IM SO DISGUSTED RIGHT NOW. EITHER SHE WILL RUN HIM THRU THE DIRT OR HE WILL FUCK HER OVER AS WELL BUT TRUST AND BELIEVE HE WILL SUFFER. GIVE THE BABIES AS MUCH HUGS AND KISSES AND LET THEM KNOW MOMMY IS THERE AND WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO MAKE THEM HAPPY AND DADDY HAS SOME ISSUES. IM SO ANGRY AND HURT
*First*Time*Mommy* - Tuesday, 1 Jul
OMG sweetheart, i am sooo sorry that you are going thru this, alone. I think you really need to go to court as soon as possible to end this. That way he can pay child support and help you out. Growing up my mom work 2 jobs to support 3 kids, it was extremely hard on her. She would eat a sandwich for dinner, while the kids had a nice meal. I think the father should be the one to tell his kids the truth in this matter. Your doing the right thing but not telling them, but if he never does, or says he is not willing to, then tell the dad, that u are gonna tell the kids the truth and he needs to know that whatever u say, the kids are going to listen to, bc the kids are smart enough to realize "not to believe daddy anymore". And i dont know what that whore's problem is about calling you a bitch, its not like u have done anything wrong ,and if he cant stand up to her and tell her it is about OUR kids, than that shows you what type of man he actually is. I am sure she isnt the greatest thing on earth that he has to be so wipped by her. You can make their life hell with court and everything bc he cheated and has a baby on the way...im not saying do anything low blow, but look what he did...i say, dont go easy on him. Because what u go easy on him for, his mistress is also getting and that bitch doesnt/shouldnt get ANYTHING from you. He was wrong to do what he did, so now he needs to face up and own up to it and be a damn man. Hell, for the kids sake, u know? I wish i was right there with you, helping you thru this. I feel so bad, but dont worry, it only gets worse before it gets better. I can tell that you are putting the kids first, and not worrying about fixing a broken marriage right now, and to me, it seems like he is running from his problems. If he doesnt want to see his kids anymore than fine, but dont break their heart, and leave you to pick up the pieces you know? How horrible. You are such a better person for handling the situation like your handling it. Cuz i would have already punched him in the face and slapped that mistress! LOL. I bet you can see yourself doing it, but hold back. Its good to think that way, makes u sorta feel better on the inside, even if you dont go thru with it. LOL. Oh and try not to forget that the mistress is probably filling his head with soo much shit, and he believe her, however it is up to him in the end to stand up to her, u know? She probably talks bad about u in front of her kids, and kids no matter if they are not yours or not, should not here that about another person. I know you probably dont talk dad about the dad in front of your kids, and that is the best way to go, bc they will remember that dad/the mistress always did, and you never did, and they will respect you more when they are older for handling it sooo maturely. Like i said, ur doing a great job, keep ur head up!
MiGal76 - Tuesday, 1 Jul
I am so sorry you are going through this. First of all, I myself would tell the kids the entire truth. The two older ones need to know and are old enough to understand and make their own decisions about their dead beat dad. Also when you do go to get divorced tell the judge about him and that he is the one who committed adultry. Then I am almost sure that the judge will completely side with you. He is the one who broke up the marriage. Again I am so sorry. If you need to talk I am here for you.
J9 - Tuesday, 1 Jul
hey, gosh that is just horrible... you are so strong dealing with this in the way you are and I totally agree that you are going about it in the right way, trying to keep the marriage and children things separate. I'm a child psychologist and so have seen really sad cases where kids are caught up in the middle or acrimonious breakups where both partners are trying to blame each other and using the kids. You aren't doing that and that's just so strong of you given the circumstances. Have you thought of writing him an email? It would give you the chance to get things out in more detail than a text but with no interruptions like the phone calls. If you do, i'd keep it very matter of fact since he sounds like he switches off. he needs to remember that his children love their daddy and are scared and confused about him leaving. They don't know what is going on which probably makes them feel even more scared cause their imaginations are left to run wild. Remind him that those children were conceived out of love and deserve his commitment even if his feelings for you have changed... he just needs to do the right thing. Sorry to go on, I just really feel for you and hope you find a path through this... xxx
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