19-2-2009 - First Strip Had 2 Lines Then Digital Said...

My mood while writing this blog: Joyous Worry

"Pregnant"...Wow I was so shocked Sunday morning that I threw the first test back into the box and hid it. It was like Pandora's box. I was afraid to see but too nosey to back off. This is the day before my period is supposed to come and I don't feel any symptoms but my clothes seem to be shrinking lol. Later in the day I buy a digital and take it, yup I'm pregnant again. Nerves. My nerves get the best of me like happiness can't even consume me without me being scared at the same time. One day at a time is what I keep saying and thanks swtmelody25 for your words of wisdom. My dr's appointment is on March 6 and it seems so far away. I should be 6 weeks and some change by then so hopefully things are better than the last time. I barely made it to 6 weeks before.

This is in itself some form of torture. I look after everytime I wipe, I'm looking for every possible sympton that I am pregnant (though I haven't really felt any difference) but I'm holding onto some hope that this is it. I tell myself don't get too happy and I already warned my other half as well. But he doesn't care. It's cute but I'm fearing a let down. Please keep me in your prayers and thoughts. And it's been 7 years since I carried a pregnancy to term so please let me know if my symptoms or lack there of are regular. When did you actually begin to feel "different" or pregnant.

Congrats to everyone that got their BFP and hold on to the ones that are on their way.