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| 16-6-2008 - June 16 |
My mood while writing this blog: Remembering.. |
Today is one year since our twin boys were born. Landon and Cade. Its weird...cause it feels like just yesterday, yet it also feels like so long ago. My body feels healed from the c-section, our lives have moved forward, even as I write this I feel the new baby kicking me reminding me that she is there!! I could let myself get really sad today...but I don't feel the need too. Today is the 'anniversary' or birthday or the boys, but I think about them everyday, not just today. I miss them, but I know God had a plan way beyond my comprehension and they are with him. And in the midst of this sorrow I find joy in this life jumping inside me. Thank you Lord for this chance again. The hardest part for me I think...is that I am 21 weeks right now...only 3 weeks away from where I was when I lost the boys. I think getting past 24 weeks is going to be a huge thing for me emotionally. I still have a hard time having Faith that this baby is going to be in my arms one day. But I pray that I do trust and have Faith that God is holding this girl in His hands and no harm is going to come of her. I think that each week that I get farther along it will get easier to believe :)Well I wanted to post a picture of my boys but instead I am just going to put a link to my old site if you are interested. They really were perfect and I love them. Click
3 Comments on June 16Halloween*Bean -
Tuesday, 17 Jun What you wrote was really beautiful. You're all in my thoughts. mommy to boys -
Monday, 16 Jun I just wanted you to know you are in my thoughts today. I understand how hard it is...I just passed the 2 years anniversary of lossing my son and I am right where I was in this pregnancy when I lost him which makes me alittle nervous, but I know all will be fine and my baby girl will have a safe arrival.
I hope you find some peace on this day ...do you have something special planned for today? I know your boys are smiling down on you and your husband today and everyday and they will see their baby sister to your arms safely.
By the way, I love the name you picked out for your daughter, how fitting. XIDJA -
Monday, 16 Jun Wow, what a difficult time you went through and are going through. I looked at your old site and was touched by it. God must have needed those little beans with him, he had a job for them! I just want to encourage you to have faith, with God all things are possible! I understand why the next few weeks will be very stressful for you. Just remember God doesn't put us through anything we cannot handle and is by yourside always. I will keep you and your little girl in my prayers!