17-3-2009 - To Move or Risk It. That is the question.

My mood while writing this blog: Upset

I dont even know where to begin.

Well lets start with what is frustating the poop out of me. And sorry maybe TMI. I am beyond frustated. I cannot for lack of better would be happy during sex. Nothing helps its not like its not enjoyable jsut no climax. I feel bad for my husband cause he is starting to think its his fault. But now im at the point that i think i might be thinking about it too much and being so focused that i dont relax. But the strange thing is that i can sure get myself to be there. Just not in sex. Ugh it will drive me insane soon i swear!

Well we got some news today that all in all plain sucks. My husband was informed today that his company is moving to ontario in septemember so he will have to job! Perfect timing!

He was offered a job in ontario or in saskatoon. The company will pay for all moving and what not but i dont know. He is very family orienated and i think it will destroy him to move so far away. He seems to think that he would be okay. For me its not as a big deal. My mom and step dad would move back to ontario too as it is where they used to live. But to pick up and move just befer we would be having the baby just seems so scary!

The other option is that he can stay at the company until sept and wait and see if any of the jobs that wil be staying behind open up or he can find a new job here. But that just is so risky to me. I mean in this stupid economy its not like it will be easy to find a good job.

It sucks i love home and our life right now i dont want to pick up and move away from it.

We only have till the begining of may till we have to give the company our desicion but i dont think i will ever be ready to fuly decide that.