04-12-2008 - excited bout baby...

My mood while writing this blog: groggy, just woke up.

Boy have I ever been stressed out. The Friday before Thxgvg I had my 1st appt. Simple routine check up, conf of pg, blood tests, pap, all the good stuff. They tried to listen to the heartbeat, but could not find it. During my pelvic Dr said I was only about 6 weeks. I was absolutely in shock. I started freaking out, running dates through my head. The only thing I could figure was that I was mc'ing again. I should have felt about 10-11 weeks, not 6. I was stressed beyond belief. Hubbs wanted this baby so badly, and even though I could never terminate or wish anything bad, I didnt know if I was ready for another (this makes 4!!!). They scheduled me for an u/s on the 23rd, but wrote 24th on my card. Well, needless to say, I missed that appt..... I rescheduled for 12/3. The first thing the tech said was 12 weeks and 2 days! I was so relieved. She chuckled and said "I've learned over the years to try and avoid telling pg women they are not as far along as they thought". The baby was moving around like crazy. Its little legs were kicking and it almost looked like it was intentionally bouncing off my uteris walls! My mom was in tears. She loves her grandbabies dearly and was just overwhelmed and relieved that there was a heartbeat.

We got a few pictures and Ive been showing them off to everyone I see, yes including people I dont know.... One of the pics is of its butt and legs and I swear I can see a lil hamburger bun.... But we wont know that until late Jan. Ugh, I hate waiting. I am definitely one of those instant gratification people.... I dont make a good pg person. After seeing the u/s, I hate to say it, but it only made me want more kids after this one. I know "big" families really arent the thing to do now-a-days(?) but hubbs and I were both only children and for some strange reason we both wanted lots of kids. Well, I think 3 is lots, hubbs would be ecstatic if we had 10! My mom is one of 12, my dad is one of 6, hubbs mom is 1 of 5 and his dad is a twin. My mom is the only one of her "group" to only have 1 kid, and that was not her choice. She had an emergency hysdirectomy immediately after my birth. Sorry, my aunt didnt have any kids, but shes a lesbian, so Im not sure if that counts or not.

Anyway, my Dr suggested getting my tubes tied after this one, and Im just not sure if I want to. If this pg goes smoothly, I dont see why I should. When we bought our house, we were so excited. It was a foreclosure. 6 bedrooms, 3 bathrooms, 2 living rooms (1 formal, 1 family), a bar/game room, formal dining room, and a huge eat in kitchen. Roughly 3800 sq. ft. of living space. In the basement we have built in another kitchen and dining room, its sort of like a mother in law suite. So its really not like we dont have the room. Hubbs job is fantastic. Tons of hours available and the worse the economy gets the more hell be needed. Im not sure if Im trying to convince myself or what..... Even though Im not the best pg person, I love babies. I just cant seem to get enough of them. It works out well between the 2 of us. My favorite ages are birth-crawling/walkin and hubbs loves mobile and up! So theres never really a time where giving attention is an issue. The kids we have now are fabulous. They are well behaved and polite. They love to help anyone anytime they need it and they want us to have a huge family too. I guess all in all, Im the one stopping this family from growing out of proportion. I dont know.....