09-9-2008 - Sept 09th,2008 Poooor me

My mood while writing this blog: feelin yucky

Well I went to the Doctor's today, and he stretched my cevix. It hurt sooooo bad, and there was a little brownish discharge,part of the mucous plug(sorry if TMI)after ,and I went limping back to my car. Seriously. I had been having stronger contractions after my hospital visit the night before, so was thinking maybe things were progressing, but he said my cervix was the same about 2cm, and still pretty high up there-he said the nurse at the hospital was over guessing at the 80% effaced, and he would put me at about 50%. He at first looked at me and tried to feel the baby's head, and was like, it's not down there, and I was like oh no he turned?! He felt again, and he was like oh wow there it is, it is turned downward, and waaay into your pelvis. That's why it's harder to feel. It's definetly in position. So on top of the waddling, the terrible pelvic pain, and the CONSTANT need to pee, my cervix is feels soo tender, and crampy. Now when the baby moves near it I almost fall over from the discomfort. The funny thing is, even though he is lodged in my pelvis, he is still way into my rib cage as well, so I am thinking he is lots bigger than the Doctor was guessing. I went home, and started to feel really yucky....kinda just blah and tired, so I lied down, and when I woke an hour later, the contractions had stopped. So, as it is now, my status is miserable but hopeful. Hopefully it'll move things along.....but if he isn't ready, then all of that was for nothing.....I just want him to come when he is ready for the outside world and not a moment sooner. I know it won't be long now, and I am thrilled to know I will be meeting him soon.

On a different note, I think the trip to the hospital made the reality set in for my man. He is hovering alot more than usual, and calling me lots more, and being alot more sweet and tender.(Not that he doesn't do all of those things anyhow, but now he is in overdrive.) This might bother some people, but I think it is very endearing, and just makes me realize once again, how much he really does care. He keep putting his hand on my belly to feel the baby move, and asking, is he moving alot? Like is he ok? It is sweet, and I am greatful I will have his support during labor and delivery. While at the hospital the other night, him being there, made me realize how much his support means to me. So as of now, I am feeling physically not so good, but mentally, I am actually feeling pretty serene. All of the baby's stuff is ready,decorated, and put away and I know that the time is near....so this is it. The final days.......and on with the next chapter of our life. I plan to cherish this time as much as I can ;)