22-3-2009 - my mother

My mood while writing this blog: not sure

so i need to vent... im just upset that i feel like my mother does not care about me or this baby at all.. i mean anyone that knows me knows that she is not the best mother anyway, but still. i used to not be able to stand my mother inlaw and now its totally different (although she is still looney) she has done so much for us and this baby and my mother has done nothing. for example..my inlaw has a closet full of clothes for the baby, has gotten us a dresser,stroller, car seat, and almost everything off our registry. dont get me wrong..its not about buying things, thats just part of the point im making. my inlaw also calls me almost everyday to see how things are going, ask if we need anything (she offered to paint the nursery for us) my mother barely calls and if she does then its cuz she wants something like a babysitter so she can go out. if i bring up the baby or the pregnancy etc. she changes the subject and just wants to talk about her and her boyfriend. she never comes over to see us ever. the only time she has been here since i have gotten pg is to pick up my little brother cuz we babysat him. once. also my little sisters college graduation is around my due date and she just keeps bringing it up..saying "u better not have the baby when she is graduating, i cant be choosing between u giving birth and seeing my baby graduate" she even went as far as to tell me that i needed to tell my dr to schedule an induction on my due date so that i dont go over due and have the baby on the graduation day. wtf? i dont think so! this baby will come when he is good and ready! i asked her isnt me giving birth a little more important than a graduation? she said well this will be the first person in the family to graduate college. didnt give me a straight answer. even though i already know her answer. there is a whole lot more she has done too but the farther i get into this the more i just dont want to go into it all..basically im just tired of having a shit mom and tired of my husband and everyone reminding me what a shit mom i have.