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11-6-2009 - A letter to Darwin

My mood while writing this blog: sentimental

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Darwin,

I've been having kind of a rough time lately coping and finding motivation and I realized that I think I'm a bit depressed because I'm slowly coming to the realization that I may never have another baby. Today you and I sat on the couch watching a movie and you were munching on your Crunchies leaning against me, perfectly content to sit still with me for a time. You sitting still is an unusual thing, so I took the opportunity to stroke and smell your hair, to kiss your forehead, to look upon you and admire the work of art that you are. And it occurred to me at that moment how full my heart is with love and how content I am with you. We don't take much time to slow down and stop thinking of the things we want and just be grateful for the things we have. But today I did that and I was once again reminded how grateful I am that I have you. I've never wanted anything in my life as much as I wanted you. I waited so long to finally be your mommy and I prayed and sealed all of my hopes in the dream of you. And now I have you and it is the most glorious thing! I am not a religious person, but if anything could make me speculate the possibility of a God that loves me, it's you. Because in you I've found everything I've ever wanted. Because of all the silly wishes I have made in my life that have not come true, somehow the one wish that truly mattered was granted to me - the wish to have you. I hope that you grow always knowing how I love you so very much. You are all that matters in my world and you, dear son, will always be my sweet baby.

Mommy

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12 Comments on A letter to Darwin


winniebabyxoxo - Monday, 16 Aug
11-6-2009 - A letter to Darwin (this blog is beautiful)

Carolinagirls - Thursday, 8 Apr
That's the sweetest thing!!! You made me cry!!

hillaryb - Monday, 22 Jun
This was so special.I understand what your going thru,because i don't think I'll be having anymore either.It gets hard because some of our "friends" are pregnant again or have had a baby.I also had to realize that Reighan is a blessing. I didn't think I could have kids because of all the miscarriages.You are BLESSED!!

happyforest - Friday, 12 Jun
ahhh this makes my tear up!! letters to baby always do. i need to write one to forest bc i still havent but i just wouldnt even know where to begin!

military~mommy - Friday, 12 Jun
I am all weepy now.... It is wonderful that we have our perfect babies, but I am not giving up on a second, and am crossing fingers for you too!

erica93 - Friday, 12 Jun
that is so sweet...I am sure darwin would love to read that when he is older.

cpalmer - Thursday, 11 Jun
oh wow....that made me cry :) thinking about my beautiful baby girl the same way, im terrified i may never have another but am glad i have the one i got!!

soon2be3 - Thursday, 11 Jun
Awww, tbt, I am crying. booooo hoooo. That's beautiful and one that I hope you will put in his baby book.

3girls2008 - Thursday, 11 Jun
holy crap now im crying!!!

EloiseAndHarrys-Mummy! - Thursday, 11 Jun
awwww . everythings making me cry today lol

BraxtonsMommy0516 - Thursday, 11 Jun
TBT-I am sitting here sobbing. Beautiful. You are blessed my dear. :)

nmck - Thursday, 11 Jun
I just got teary. That is so sweet.