11-7-2008 - still spotting... a little... AND....

My mood while writing this blog: confused...worried

so yesterday, as the day went on my spotting became a little bit brighter in color... i got even more worried, BUT it wasnt even enought to wear a pad just a panty liner, so that should be okay right? I should be okay RIGHT? argghghghghghhhhh.....

today, the spotting is lighter. i think the cause of the spotting might be a combonation os sex and implatation... last night, i was so not inthe mood for sex, but my DH was. i had to fight it... i can not risk this one. sometimes i feel that having sex was the cause of my last m/c. everytime that we did have sex, i bled a little . the doc and others said it was not normal but not uncommon. the night before the day of our m/c we "danced". the day of, i just bled more and more.

even on the day of my m/c i went to the docs in the morning... had a US and they said everything was okay. "he" had a strong heartbeat and they saw no reason for a m/c. still the m/c happend later on that day... i know it happend. i know my body. i had strong cramping... went to the bathroom, something passed. wasnt able to see it, but after that, a few hours later i felt totally fine again. AGAIN!, i called the docs office. told them what had happen, all they kept telling me was that is i wasnt bleeding enought to fill out 1-2 pads every hour, then dont worry about it. " it is very common to bleed through a pregnancy" thats what they kept on saying... all this happend on a tuesday... i had an appt. for that monday the next week, so all they kept telling me was is i wasnt bleeding tremendously then just come in when appt is. so through that week, i just kinda bled like it was a regular period. just a little, not even like a heavy period. SORRY, im just babbleing now.... just frustrated!

bottom line... i think there will be no sex till i find out everythings okay... so now, HOW do i tell that to myDH? lol.

frustrated...

love, D