27-6-2008 - Taking a break

My mood while writing this blog: ok

Hey Everyone!

I am getting way too impatient, way to depressed and way too sad and determined to have my baby! This website is perfect and wonderful and I absolutely love it however I am not going to be comin on here everyday anymore. The reason? Becuase seeing all the ladies going into labor, all the ladies dilating, all the ladies having their babies is makine me so frustrated that its not me and Im not enjoying these last few weeks as I should be! I am forgetting that she will be here before I know it and Im gonna have a little gorwing baby that will no longer be in me but out and grow so damn fast !!!! I am forgetting how to cherish the last few weeks! I am putting way too much stress on my body by watching all these ladies and feeling pissed at them rather than happy for them!!! LOL! I have been trying all the ome remedies from squatting, walking, stairs, sex, teas, pills, everything and nothing is working and then I wonder, why am I even doing this??? I have 18 days left in my pregnancy at the most.. that is not a long time at all!!! Imagine if we were told we have 18 days to live, that would be nothing to us!!! So yah, my time here has to be limited by me! LOL! I will not be here everyday, I will be occupying myself with the house, the yard and enjoying the kids being off school and doing stuff to steer me away from obsessing unhealthily about going into labor! Hell I've been so obsessed that Im at the damn computer all day, taking a break to clean, eat or take the kids to the park... but mostly on the computer! I havent even cooked dinner all week!!! Ive picked up take out cuz Im so busy obsessing on here that Im not cooking!!! Its horrible!!!!! LMAO! So yah, I will be here every Tuesday to check in and say hello!

IF my body happens to go into labor I will let you all know as soon as it happens!

Good luck ladies and I will for sure talk to you soon! those of you on my MSN we will talk everyday! lol!

Bye for now! And all the best!