24-9-2008 - I hate life sometimes

My mood while writing this blog: Pissy as hell

Seriously this sick baby shit is NEVER GONNA END! If you all rmember my last blog, well it hasnt gotten better in fact if anything its just getting worse. Chlose wont stop crying unless Im holding her and even when Im holding her she is fussy. She used to be the happiest baby in town, NEVER EVER cried for any reason at all. Slept GREAT through the night. She was amazing. Boom she gets sick, does a complete 180 and is the devils child I swear. Im crying, Im angry I want to scream and yell and I WANT to hatemy kids but of course I cant! LOL! Im soooooo pissy! I cant even take Sophie for a walk because Chloe wont let me put her in the damn stroller. She wont go to sleep, she is just so freaking cranky. In her crib crying right now becuas eI just cant take it anymore. I feel so guilty but I cant put her down! She used to be so perfect and now I dont even know my own baby! I dont know what she wants anymore, she is just different. Im in such a horrible mood, feeling depressed. nothing helps me or her. I am gonna get my stupid period soon so Im sure thats not helping with my mood and tolerance. All in all I have nothing good to say. Well, she likes to hold hands and stand while holding your hands so she is strong. Other than that I have nothing nice to say! Isnt that just horrible??!?!?! She is just so... cranky!!! I dont even know how to soothe her anymore she just isnt feeling good and I dont have the patience to deal with the constant crying and no sleep. Its been 3 weeks of sickness and no sleep. I just can't take it! I need a freaking nanny! LOL! If only I were rich. Man I can't believe how bad of a rotten mood Im in. I need to get out of the house, I need to be away from babies, sickness, sleeplesness and everything for a while. Sometimes like today I wish I was working now, just to get the hell away! Have someone else deal with it! Ugh! Im sorry if I sound super extra bitchy... I just am. And I have no one to talk to, no one to bitch to, no one to cry with... so thats what all you ladies are for. Thanks for listening and sorry again for the bitchfest. I need to bitch. I need to be here on the computer away from my screaming child for a while. Ugh I can't take it anymore! HELP MEEEEEE! So this is why people drink.

Thanks everyone for your thought and advice and comments! Today is a much better day so far. I woke up this morning with my period so it may explain my complete sanity loss yesterday. Who knows. Chloe is napping na dhas been pretty happy this morning, waking up in her crib by cooing, talking and making such cute noises, not crying for once! So maybe my little girl is returning to her ole self again! Lets hope so. Yesterday I was so depressed, lets hope today brings happier times! I have so far cleaned 2 of the 3 girls' rooms, cleaned the kitchen, batroom, and living room AND Ive done some laundry including actualy putting it away. Im feeling that good today! Crazy hey!? ANYWAYS, thanks again to EVERYONE! Love you all!