21-7-2008 - Late night blog

My mood while writing this blog: Tired

Oh my god, it's 10:00 pm and I'm calling this a "late night blog". I've turned into a granny.

My partner has discovered my webpage, and re-described his name on my profile to "Mr Perfect". Well - kind of!! That's for you baby, if you're reading this!!!

I am so fat. I have this giant belly, which is worrying because it aint all baby. I think half of it is hot chocolate, frozen Mars Bars, chilli cheese bread, BBQ shapes (they are kind of dry crackers!).

Wedding is coming up in 2 weeks time. Most people slim for their wedding. Not me. Oh well, I may as well be different.

Not sure how the baby is. Hopefully ok, but I keep thinking I've done awful things to him/her. First, I worried my bath was too hot. Then, my excema got so bad I had to put cortisone cream on and decided that I may have passed on a birth defect and then I got told I was taking the wrong folic acid (huh?) and lastly I used aloe vera to calm my excema ridden skin down. Nup - that's bad - it leads to contractions. Man - I'm sure women didn't have all these restrictions in the olden days. But then, half of them probably died in child birth...

Well - I'm up to Week 10. Yay - only 30 weeks to go! Actually, it's pretty exciting. I just have to wait til Aug 14 for my next ultrasound. It's too long!!! I just want everything to be okay.

I still can't believe there's a little baby in there. I feel pregnant, but I don't feel like I have a living human inside me. I feel like I should feel him/her.

I think it's a her. At least that's what MP (mr perfect!!) is predicting.

Oh god, I wish I knew everything was okay. I hope it is. I'm sure it is. It's good to be possimistic (thanks travis from the big brother house)

Til next time